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The End

2009-05-01T14:26:00.000-07:00

doinkz.

many things ended on a good and bad note.

let's wait for 1 year later.

Back from Shandong

2009-04-11T17:05:00.000-07:00

doinkz. this blog seemed to be rotting away since February..

dear people, i am back! both to my blog and from china.

yes, i had just came back from china, this time from shandong and many places in shandong. a definitely better trip this time than the previous i would say. better food, better iterinary, better things and more. took a total of around 1800++ pictures. =/ wonder how i am going to sort them out. haha. but seriously nothing much to buy from there. just bought some stuff for myself, my brother, mr sim, colleagues and close friends.

and seriously, my neck is breaking, from the flights yesterday. =/

may be able to post some pictures soon. but again, maybe not. if there are, it would be up on facebook.

anyway, so not looking forward to the horrors at work on monday. but one has to face reality after a break sometimes.

still unpacking stuff at the moment. and forgot to mention, i nearly froze on the first 3 days of the trip, especially at Tsing Tao. -pengz-

off to rest now. neck breaking, legs aching, back hurting, too tired.

Updates

2009-02-20T23:49:00.000-08:00

doinkz. am back~.. and it's already February. =/ and i got the feeling that if i dont update soon, this blog will really rot.

anyway, chinese new year came and go. watched a couple of movies, which i thought some of them were plain wasting of money and time. the two local productions are really bad. inkheart is pretty good. underworld is not bad too. outlander is good too. next up, pink panther 2! =)

then more stress during work, as my department is facing many difficulties in executing our projects. and for me, just looking for a venue alone is enough to really make me pull all my hair out. not because of anything, just the super tight deadline. well, at least, i have settled the most crucial problem at the moment. hope by the time comes, please come and support my event! =)

finally met up with weisee for the past 2 weeks. got her to help me to buy an ipod. and i really think i am quite an apple idiot. until now, i havent really customise the ipod the way i want it to be. and we took neoprints the other day when we were out, and we went arcade. which was bad for the latter as i got 7 injured fingers after playing bishi-bashi with her. doinkz..

i have sort of more than halfway through the show 'ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni' and some of the parts are so sad that i kept crying. =/ and after waiting for about 3 weeks for the last disc, i have decided to buy the dvds myself. should be finishing the show by tomorrow. heh. i suddenly think that i am a show freak. haa.

this weekend, will finally have some time to go and make a new atm card as I lost my card. and the thing is, i dont even remember where and when. and i will have my chance to go sing in kbox. i got pangseh-ed 3 times last week for kbox. really doinkz.

been feeling unwell these days. i feel the need to sleep early.

The flashback on 2008

2009-01-01T23:48:00.000-08:00

doinkz. happy new year everyone. welcome to 2009. =)

the past year was a fruitful year for me. not much of many ups and downs. but rather, i felt that time passed too quickly for me to remember any significant events.

just hope that the new year will be an even better one. i know that 2009 will be a super busy year ahead.

cheers!

Christmas and all

2008-12-29T23:22:00.000-08:00

doinkz. am back. belated merry christmas to all~..

had a more relaxing week than usual, though many things are still overwhelming.

caught a couple of movies - Ip Man, Twilight, Yes Man, Bolt, The day the earth stood still, Bedtime stories. Ip Man had to be the best, followed by Yes Man..

bought a few CDs too, and had great pleasure in listening to them.

and of course, christmas just passed, and i did got my wish as written on the post-it tree. =) and i do like the present very much, if the person out there knows that i am writing this.

and, almost got a heart attack in class just now due to the supposedly presentation tomorrow. i couldnt balance my balance sheet for nuts and for someone who has absolutely no acoounts background, i think i fared pretty okie to be able to come up with my cash flow balance and abit of profit and loss projection. and thank goodness raymond saved the night by bringing forward his lessons, if not i cant imagine myself staying throughout the night trying to balance some nonsensical figures that i have to come up with in the first place.

not to forget the unforgettable experience in the morning where i screamed and got the rest of the office peeps to come to my table to witness those little cockroaches on the cereal thingie. i cant believe i screamed and the world thought it was jean. haa.

anyway, i better work on my balance sheet now when i have the time, and worry more about the annual gathering tomorrow. ciao~

Update

2008-12-13T23:55:00.000-08:00

doinkz.

it had been a long long while since i last updated. lots of stuffs to update, but not really in the mood to do so. things had been pretty bad these days for me, and somehow i do not feel like talking about it.

so well, let me blog down the past happenings first. first and foremost, i went china, zhang jia jie and came back. took alot of pictures, was like the official photographer for the whole tour. food was not too bad, except that for almost every meal i was eating the same foodstuffs. cold to some extent. i am quite cured of my fear for heights after going to the mountains. my stamina is not really stronger after the trip. things were pretty cheap there, but i got nothing much to buy. eye-opening experience i would say. not to forget that i was stuck in the toilet for about 2 hours, and the toilets there.. simply bwg.

then work, as usual, more backlog, more events, more headache. getting more and more stressed as the end of this year and start of next year approaches.

others - watched a couple of movies - magadascar 2 was super funny. body of lies was not too bad. bolt was abit quite standard happy ending. city of ember was nice. the day the earth stood still was abit boring in the middle. would want to watch twilight and yes man when both movies are out.

and i guessed that's about it for the moment. will update more when i am in the mood.

No thoughts

2008-11-04T23:33:00.000-08:00

doinkz. back.

tired. concussed. puked. (not exactly puked, just the amount of things to do makes me feel like puking). terrible busy month. going to go botak soon because i am going to pull out all my hair.

caught a few movies previously - butterfly lovers, max payne, mamamia, and so on. 'killed' another event, with more to come (horror, horror..) been through a week of 'worst' week last week with one on leave, and on on mc. not all things going well.

leaving for china this weekend. will update again when i am less concussed, with more thoughts.

September update

2008-10-07T22:06:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back!

been a crazy September. work has gotten quite overwhelming till i seriously find no time to blog. bleah.

alright, updates for the past month. been through some hard times - those queries, releases and whatnots alone are enough to kill me - the amount and the intensity - plus everything that comes and goes with it. attended a funeral. some new colleagues joined. watched some movies. been a lil sick sometimes. mr sim's reservist. a collegue left. went to sing kbox with weisee. went nobel house and pierced my finger with the crab shell. crazy project work.

in the midst of some much nonsense, i managed to find some joy in a $1.50 toy called the rubix cube. been figuring out how to complete the whole thing, can only do one side at the moment. =)

seriously i feel very tired and want to go to sleep. i need to get a new pair of specs too. china trip next month. and crazy work schedule before and after that. still trying to figure out how to juggle with so many things.

"life is like a rubic cube. You decide you either turn to where you came from, or turn to make your life more colourful." - myself (and don't mind my nonsense)

btw, aries bought me a left-hander pen. shall try it. =)

Random post

2008-08-31T23:40:00.000-07:00

doinkz.. am back once again. dont mind my random thoughts below.

alright, august sort of going to pass, in erm, 10 mins. overall not a too bad birthday month. lots of staff movements at work. dont seem too good on the overall. absolutely love mr sim's present =) and i do scold him less when he turns up late. well, caught a couple of movies over the past month - x-files, mummy 3, money not enough 2, wall-e, clone wars, and i just cant remember what else. wall-e had to be the best. =) i like clone wars too, though it's just average. housebunny up next. think mamamia is going to be good too. (frankly speaking, wall-e is so cute)

been spending quite abit when i should be saving for the november china trip. shall not buy any more things for this month. and abit stressed at work though, because my stats doesnt look too good, and i am seriously trying very hard but things had to die on me sometimes. then class is headache-ish sometimes, with super boring subjects at the moment. next, havent been meeting up with old friends, classmates, ex-colleagues and all. i should seriously take some time off work and my class. (still some short-long way to go until jan next year).

experienced some kind of weird shock last thursday, think neighbour caught by surprise too. then my room is getting more and more messy by the day and i got no idea why. looks like i need to take some leave to stay at home to clear up my room.

okie. i really think this post is super randomly structured and phrased. and i need to hit the pillow. tomorrow is bluey monday.

Birthday this year

2008-08-10T23:41:00.000-07:00

doinkz. back!!

wanted to blog on 8 August to have that 08.08.08, but was too lazy somehow to do it.

and so, it's 10 August and i just celebrated my birthday yesterday and today. =) first and foremost, let me update about the past happenings over the past 2 weeks.

work - janis came in, and jul left. =/ good thing that janis had settled down pretty well. and we would be adding another member into the team any time soon - jean. workload was sort of re-shuffled. managed to have some things taken away from me, though abit sad that the magazine would not come under my main portfolio anymore but happy at the same time, because it's just too much for me to handle - like what a certain someone said. =/ sounds abit bad for me. and looking at the way things is going, it certainly doesnt look very bright for the moment.

course - finally i can proudly say that i have 6 more modules to go, despite i am not sure what are the results of the latest 3. this week is killer week, but i am so glad that i pulled through somehow - handed up all the assignments, finished all the oral and written exams. shall anticipate the next 3 modules, and of course january.

others - watched 'The Mummy 3' and 'Journey to the center of the Earth' and the latter was great compared to the former. might be catching other movies like 'Money not enough 2' tomorrow since i would be on leave tomorrow (yay!!) =P

lastly - birthday!!

first, must thank my parents for the cake (celebrated one week earlier actually). next, mr sim for the ds lite. =P (and i know i kb-ed abit too much sometimes). ellie for the earrings and necklace set. princess ariel for the necklace. tooty and ws for the vouchers. and the following for your best wishes (please pardon me if i happen to miss you name out): gr, rachel, tomo, vivian, neighbour, jean, ries, weicai, si blyan and some others etc. there's also this particular person whom i must have lost his/her number and sent me best wishes. thanks too!

so was supposed to go on singapore flyer but went to eat and watched movie instead for yesterday. and today, had steamboat at bugis, went arcade for some "childhood recollection". overall, enjoyed both days. whee =P

took leave for tomorrow. finally one day when i can say no more monday madness.

Stoning time

2008-07-25T21:29:00.000-07:00

doinkz. i am back again.

yes, a finally more organised me, less tired me and that's why i can blog more often these days. (though table in office is still messy, as well as the one at home). foresee major happenings soon. and the slowdown in events for this year makes me more relaxed, but makes me feel that as though i am slacking at work.

another round of exams soon for the course, and when i am done with them, it would be 9 modules down and 6 more to go. seriously, it's very tiring, but makes me plan my schedule really well. more organised in some ways or another. the big BUT is, there are many projects, group projects i mean, and sometimes i just hope for more oral tests or something. kill it with one shot, instead of writing and doing powerpoint presentations. (i mean i had enough of writing after those years in school, and now at work).

cant wait for pay day. so broke already. television at home is spoilt and seriously need a new one. now i cant watch my dvds, and programmes on tv.

and lastly, i feel like taking one week of leave just to sleep at home. or read comics. or play maple. or go on a short trip. or my fav: STONE

I need to shout

2008-07-22T23:34:00.000-07:00

doinkz.

sometimes, life sucks. like some vacuum cleaner.

today seemed somewhat like a bad day (although boss is not around). i seriously hate to coordinate things sometimes. irony is, i need to coordinate stuffs everyday at work.

i dont know if i am the fussy one, or others are the fussy ones. blame it on my tiny brain - i tend to forget some stuffs that i hate doing. seriously, i think i need to be less hard on myself and heck care. and people dont understand. i am already trying my best.

just let me rant. i will feel better. i am a complain queen.

6-pointer update

2008-07-21T23:54:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am finally back again! =)

16 days since i last updated. and..

(1) i had watched 3 movies (Red Cliff, Hellboy2, The dark knight). 3 of them were not bad. My favourite goes to Hellboy2 and that song in the movie (I cant smile without you or something like that). Red Cliff and The dark knight seem somewhat the same to me, though not really a fan of both. Ever since watching Ironman, i really think other superhero movies = no kick. Cant wait for more Ironman/War Machine movies. Next on my list is Mummy 3, Housebunny, X-files etc. whee~

(2) super sudden resignation of ah-tao. well, i mean, she would have confirmed as tao after appraisal. such a waste, but maybe she will be happier elsewhere. neighbour and i were left all by ourselves, with another new staff who just came in, and hopefully another one in a week or two. ah tao has been my ah tao since i came in and moved. abit sad though. will miss her expressive self and laughter.

(3) met up with grace over dinner. this girl is doing good man~~~ and so are the others like claire and eileen (i heard).

(4) things are looking abit brighter (at least). the hair-pulling incident was over. i had decided to stick to what i come from (pretty obvious). glad that things are looking abit brighter, and more breatheable at least. screw-ups were less often these days, as i tend to keep to my schedule well. hope better things are on the way!

(5) don't think i am going for that marketing degree. coursemate asked me if i am interested to go for it after the diploma. of course i am, but dont have the bucks to go for it. and time too~. another 2 years of working and studying may eventually kill me. think my current qualifications is good enough to land me a job anywhere.

(6) mr sim says he will work hard for me. whee =)

6-pointer update. i am done. time to hit the pillow.

Hancock + some updates

2008-07-05T23:25:00.000-07:00

doinkz.

5 days now, and i am still thinking about that. wah lao, really bad timing. and at this rate, i think i will have to let this opportunity flies away. -sigh- "do not feel obligated", that somebody says. but i am feeling that obligated. =/ it doesnt help when i know that the outcome of what i had been dying to know may jolly well only be out in maybe 2 more weeks. -argh- something which i had totally no interest is yet slowly eating me away with those temptations.

on a side note, just came back from watching hancock. not too bad a show, just felt that something is lacking somewhere. =/

been dying to go for a break. HT asked me to go for a genting trip, and rac asked if i wanted to go for SMRT challenge. sounds like good ideas.

work had been getting more and more nonsensical.

i havent really buy anything from GSS yet. (though i am quite happy to get a doraemon mini vaccuum cleaner just yesterday).

someone save me from this agony please~ those who know will know. in these shitty days, i am so glad mr sim is here to tolerate my nonsense.

Job Offer + movies + maple fair

2008-07-01T22:20:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back.

finally the 3rd nightmare of the year was over. and along with it, 3 other peeps left. -wah lao- 2 of my best helpers and friends are not here anymore. no more lunch date, no more peng you. =/ been to so many farewells this month that i cant wondering when's mine. rarely anytime for a breather but now is the time. new ah girl is good, in fact, so happy with her performance that i feel like keeping her to myself forever. haa. but she is only here until the end of this month.

work had been atrociously piling up. good thing was that there is finally some kind of recognition for the hard work that was put in. well, was in that kind of frenzy mood for the whole week. datelines and deadlines everywhere. so glad that i survived somehow, even after ms peng you is gone. one n half weeks without peng you and i am still coping. felt like screaming sometimes because the workload just kept piling up. ah tao is so much better now, at least we are handling the situation together, not alone. anyway, work just lacked some kind of motivation these days, especially when there are constantly more deadlines/datelines.

and, was really honoured to receive a certain phone call yesterday. and i was so, so, so tempted by the offer/invitation. i have considered for two days already, and i am still considering. (see the impact?) this is really brain-damaging. either someone please convince me that it is not worth thinking or shoot me please.

anyway, movies nowadays really cannot make it. was totally disappointed with zohan, thought it should be a pretty decent movie. but totally loved kungfu panda. =) waiting to watch hellboy or something like that.

been to maple birthday bash just a few days ago. got some freebies. disappointing carnival. =/ not because i didnt win the lucky draw but seriously i missed the ga-cha-mob which was so much fun last year. anyone has used A-cash cards to sell/trade? i wanna collect the whole set.

sigh. i feel so tired of everything. and i got oral test tomorrow. and my mind cant stop thinking of that call/invitation/offer. i am going crazy.

Many issues to update

2008-06-08T10:13:00.000-07:00

doinkz. and i am back again. with a resolution to blog more often. heh.

anyway, managed to get a little breather last week because there were no classes, and the nightmare work week havent start (and well, it just did).

should expect an easier life for the next 2 month with my classes because the modules seem alot easier than the previous lot. almost pulled my hair out because of the finance module previously. and work - as usual, need not comment further. and my dearest intern and friend is going to leave soon, and that will be the time when i will start pulling my hair again. just crossed my fingers and pray super hard that there will be some kind of help rendered. and the nightmare week is here. i foresee more hair to drop, and a more grumpy me.

watched prince casplan with mr sim somewhere last week. and it was only ok. thought that it should be pretty exciting, but no. guessed because the target audience is kids and teenagers, hence there are not too much fighting scenes. not to mention, i am still at the 'tai wang si shen ji' mood. and i am going to buy the soundtrack!

GSS sales this year is okie. havent really been out there to do shopping but when i was in town yesterday, it does not seem that there are many great deals. and now i remembered that i went for a rather kuku course yesterday at some kuku timing 6-9pm. if not for some project that i am handling at work, i think i would not have bothered. and not to mention, that bag for stuff which i am supposed to bring along is damned heavy. and either people keep knocking into me, or the bag just keep bumping into my legs. worst thing is, the package inside was not de-magnetised. so whenever i walked past/through those RFID thingies, the alarm will sound, and the whole world will stare at me as if i really steal something. -wah lao-

and lastly, my desk in my office finally looks neater. but the one at home looks the same. bah.

The Legend: Tai wang si shen ji

2008-05-31T23:30:00.000-07:00

doinkz. i am back!

many thoughts running in my mind now and this post will continue in chinese characters. i may decide to adopt this style in future.

晚安各位朋友！今天想换一个方式来记载这些日子的点滴。

之前我说过会很快地回来这个部落格，没想到还是拖了一个月。在这一个月里，还是发生了不少事情呢。

首先，Claire已经换了另一份工作。虽然她不是我最要好的朋友，但毕竟都是一起在同样时间进入了这间公司，也可称是好友之一。心情是有一点失落的。最近的工作也还是一样的繁重。有时加上要上课与考试，还真的让我透不过气来。工作当时又不是很顺心，我也怀疑自己是不是得罪了小人。某人不体谅我目前的处境，我又能如何呢。人手不足，又有堆积如山的事情要处理，我也懒得解释。只希望情况会改善。然而当我觉得情况好转了那么一些，我最要好的朋友却要离开了。人各有志，我不会挽留因我知道她也不会留。之前心理做了一些准备，所以知道时不会太惊讶。还蛮难过的，但我知道天下无不散之宴席，以后还能碰面吃饭。除了她，还有另一位同事会离开。虽然不是很熟，但也会有那么一点难过。

在工作之余，我以前的两位前同事都分别问我是否要换工作。这些问题也来的真是时候。我以为我不会动摇，但我错了。当我考虑时就已经代表我动摇了。但是，我不会离开，至少暂时不会。因为我想要达到的目标还没达到。然而我发现的是原来我已经放下之前的一些“恩怨”，不再追究了。那是好的。

其实让我有感而发地用华语来表达是有原因的。最近我看了《太王四神记》，而不知怎么的，我竟然有好多感触。真的好久好久没有一部能让我感触良多的戏了。
戏里的某一些人物感动了我，某一些动作也让我觉得好感动。好人有不好的缺点，坏人也有好的一面。戏里的结尾虽然很符合逻辑也很合理，但不是我要的结局。整个故事让我想了很多很多。例如：人物的某些举动，说的某句话等。我最近的精神寄托就放在了这里。看完后好想再看，好想回顾看过的画面。也可能是我一直很期待主角的最终选择，总觉得好像少了什么。真的着迷了。看着看着有时也会挺难过的。

我需要一点时间。用来发呆。

真的好想放假。连发呆的时间都没有。

脑海里还是出现《太王四神记》里的画面，怎么办？

我需要发呆。

Beware: Long Update

2008-04-29T22:30:00.000-07:00

doinkz. more than a month since i last blogged! =/

beware: super duper woper long entry ahead. please skip if you are not interested in mundane, boring bits of my life.

it has been a suffocating month, with work, events, and 'school'. time spent with friends, boyfriend and colleagues are fine and the best, just hope that i can spare more time for these.

anyway, firstly just want to pen some 'unusually interesting' stuffs down before i forgets. something about food safety rather. well, many news about food safety recently. and just happened that i always suay suay kenna some extra ingredients in my food. well, i remember many instances of hair and egg shells. and if you all know me well enough, you should know that i will throw the food away / boycott the food even if i have only taken one mouthful of that food. so, it just happened that recently i don't just experience "eating" egg shells but rather more gross stuffs. some time ago, i was eating my favourite 'ee mian' near my work place and that very day, didnt know what happen but i actually started to eat all the green leafy vegetables first (i dont usually do that) and guess what, after finishing almost all the veggies, and one mouthful of noodles, i scooped 'something' up in my bowl of soup. i thought it was the tiny little stalk with abit of vegetables (you know what i mean) but guess what, i was wondering why that stalk of vegetables has some black lines. so upon closer examination, i puked out whatever that is in my mouth and boycotted that whole bowl of nonsense. it was a 2cm long caterpillar. -utterly disgusted-

next, many happenings during this 1 month which i havent got time to blog
- 2 major events at work
- band comp 2008
- genting trip
- another sudden resignation

first, about the events. it was a major load off my chest/shoulders/body/mind/whatever because it was so -tmd- taxing just to think about it. everything went well on both days except for some minor hiccups which were manageable. but thank god the second event was so much less taxing and tedious than the first. and though it was sort of a full day event, it was still manageable, and at least i felt less tired. was so pissed that afternoon because when i finally got to eat, someone had to sit near me to remind me of all my pending work. =/ later part of the day was better, as the rehearsal was quite fun. =) dinner was alright, but i didnt really get to eat much because i was walking all over the place to make sure the event is doing fine. well, and because of that event, it made me miss 'school' for another time, and i almost puked blood this week because there are so many things that i have to hand up this week both at work and for 'school'.

and to backtrack abit more, band comp 2008 was over. and this year i didnt get to attend. -argh- because i was off at genting. one week before band comp, i went back with ries to that destinated place. well, bp sort of move in, move out, and now move in again to that teck whye place. sounds rather jinxed. but doesnt it shows that the band shouldnt even be split in the first place? well, i cannot imagine what would i be today if i didnt know weisee (who is from teck whye) or some others who has impacted my life.. alright. just been abit nostaglic here. =/ anyway, that irritating security uncle made me and ries baked in the sun for almost half an hour. apparently it was the dyed hair issue, which mine wasnt that obviously while ries's hair was. so we baked in the sun, outside the gate for half an hour. at the time we got there, the band was playing and till we finally went it, the band has stopped playing. if i had my way, would throw a rock inside and knocked that uncle out. anyway, saw the band, and only knew 'jordan' because he is in sec5 this year. there was like a handful of ex-members back there, with helen as the oldest and most supportive supporters. however, to me, i felt quite sad. the sadder part was not that, but the instructor who conveniently walked around "without even throwing a glance at the ex-members except for daniel". sigh. the members, erm, looked fine to me except for the part when i pitied those instruments that were poorly maintained and looked tattered till this date. anyway, was glad that i went back but simply felt that everything had changed.

and there i went on to my genting trip. was indeed super unhappy that i didnt get to catch the show this year, but didnt regret going for my trip as this is the first time i am going on tour with mr sim. =) this time it was abit different from previous genting trips because apart from just having fun at the theme parks which really got more and more boring over the years, i tried archery. =) needless to say, i was quite bad at it. the first time round, i really cant bear to even say how i fare. firstly, i dont have enough strength to pull the bow and next, it is quite hard for a left handed to learn when everyone are right handed. =/ anyway, we played bowling too. and again, i fared the worst in some games. and i went to casino, and sat down to play jackpot. -whee- i won $50. =)

then, when i came back, i was so bloody tired, and because it was the week of the event, so i didnt took leave on monday. and results of the band comp was out. felt a little disappointed that bp didnt win again, and congrats to deyi! =) havent look at the videos yet and will take a look when i am more free.

and as usual, my table's piling up with more and more stuffs (both the one at home and at work). almost suffocating at work everyday because there are so many things to do, and sometimes i felt that i have an additional role: part-time PA. doinkz. =/ and anyway, my neighbour has joined me in the messy club. haha~.. and not to mention, my schoolwork is getting more and more messy too. all notes are jumbled up because i do not have a file for them. and i am in the midst of filing my stuff at my tiny little desk at office.

anyway, before the end of this post, would like to add that i am super pissed off today. and i shall update when the time is right, because i feel super tired now, and i still have lots of rubbish to do (even at home). sigh. maybe i should be become a popcorn seller.

tatax. look for next post, as it is most probably tomorrow.

Busy, super busy

2008-03-22T15:44:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back before this blog really rots away.

before i knew it, today is already march 22!! havent blog close to a month and the for the same reason again.

finally, yes FINALLY, one nightmare at work is down. and here comes another 2 more. =/ was super duper woper busy at work with the events and what-nots. major change in the department and before i knew it, the whole department is becoming like a mini-CRD. goods and bads i guess. though i still prefer the previous team. work still more mundane as ever, and literally, my desk is piled up with never-ending work. pay my desk a visit and you will know what i mean. and recently, it seems like everyone is stressed up for one reason or another.

exams are fine, except for 1, which i passed the re-test later on. haha~.. am embarrassed for failing for that safety component. anyway, the course mates are another nice bunch of people whom really takes my stress away from me, and i am referring to the two ladies whom i have sticked to since the start of the course. =)

then, really nothing much to say except that i really need a break from work and everything, before the next nightmare crashes on me like the previous one did. most probably will take a day or two just to nua at home to watch DVDs or to take a short trip somewhere. on a bad note, my room is still so messy. and i have no idea how to help my father to do e-filing. and i havent met up with the rest of the world since dont know when. i desperately need some sleep.

and recently, i am just hooked on to facebook - only for the fluff pets. ;)

tatax. think i need to hit the pillow for a while before i go out again.

Eventful week

2008-02-24T23:18:00.000-08:00

doinkz. am back again~.. and i must reiterate that time really flies.

another so-called 'eventful' week just passed. in chronological order, i must state what happened..

in short, the following events took place
- a sudden resignation in office
- ktv singing session with ms li, ms leong and ms lim
- mr sim's bangkok trip
- writing course
- course projects and presentations

and of course, mr sim is already back in singapore. but somehow, we ended up quarrelling. and to think that i still went to the airport to pick him up at those kind of hours at night. doinkz. but we are fine now. =) and he bought matching t-shirts for both of us. =) the bad thing though, he got food poisoning now. haix. =/ he always gets sick so easily.

then as usual, busy at work for the past week, even when i was at the course. the course was quite fun, and lots of jokes shared during lesson time. =) hated the grammar session though. =X overall i think the course should be quite effective.

project works were horrors for the past week. almost everyday i am chionging to finish the projects on top of my tons and tons of un-finished things to do at work. am lagging seriously behind some deadlines. gonna finish them before it's too late and got people chasing behind my tail. =/

and to all, i have switched my hp number. to those who did not receive any notification means i have lost your number somehow and i sincerely aplogise because my previous phone went for software updates a few times. please let me have your numbers too. =)

and tomorrow is dreadful monday again. think i need to hit the pillow soon.

The long and short of my update

2008-02-17T22:59:00.000-08:00

doinkz. it has been a super long time since i last really update this rotting blog.

alright. first thing of this year: I spent new year's day with targa! =) okie. that was old news i know but hey, we actually walked from shaw all the way to PS. something amazing for us because he wouldnt want to walk so far at all. haa~..

then second thing of the year, eileen left us. =( then followed by qinyi. qinyi's resignation was abit sudden though. =/ and i was quite shocked when she told me. but still wished her all the way. she was the last person whom i thought will leave. then there were 2 new peeps, whom i got along well pretty well, and one of them is my saviour. heh. =)

then there was some changes - cant really tell good or bad now, because i really cant. anyway, not for me to comment too. just stick through thin and thick with those i have now.

so that was work. course was fun at times, but when it comes to project work, it can really be quite tedious. =/ supposed to hand up projects as and when now, and it happened to be my busier period during my work now. with lots and lots and lots of thingies to do, i cant even think how not to occupy myself.

then chinese new year came and is still here. didnt go bai-nian because ah ma passed away last year. so pretty quiet this year and not much of activities except that i caught CJ7 and Ah Long Pte Ltd this holiday season. dont think it was so bad as the reviews said. and as usual, watched more vcds/dvds as usual. all my money are on those dvds. =/

v-day came and left. got mr sim a very cute book "the differences between men and women" and i received a cup and a card which i loved very much. =) *hEe*.. didnt really celebrated.

and it has been an eventful week, with emails all over the place. i cannot imagine what is going to come next. last but not least, i hate mondays, and that's tomorrow. must start planning ahead already. =/ good night world.

Happy Chinese New Year

2008-02-07T23:40:00.000-08:00

doinkz.

just want to wish everyone a "Happy Chinese New Year"!

not exactly in the best mood to blog now. till then, cya all.

Wah lao sian

2008-01-22T22:49:00.000-08:00

doinkz.

as you people can see, i am still alive kicking, but dead tired.

2008 has been a busy start. too many things to update, but i cant spare the time. i need the time to sleep. shall update everything in my next entry, though who knows when my next entry will be.

just some very usual thingies: i hate mondays, not because of monday blues but because my workload just double every monday. i foresee more things to do especially if there is no replacement of manpower, and of course i dread going to meetings every now and then because more work to do after i come out of each meeting.

really need some kbox session. or maybe some coffeebean (pure chocolate) or ice milk tea from mos will do too. enjoys my work as it is (as in what i am doing now), but hate more work. haix. better touch up on my stuffs before it's time to pull myself out of bed and to work again. -wah lao, sian-

Recap 2007

2008-01-01T23:50:00.000-08:00

doinkz. firstly, wish all a happy 2008!! =D

beware: super, super, super long entry ahead.

firstly to summarize what happened the past 2 weeks, ie. last 2 weeks of 2007. nothing much significant that i remembered except for the christmas celebration and gift exchange in the office. i got a cup in a very cute metal tin. =D i also won the 22nd prize in the lucky draw, which i now used it as a storage box for my earrings. other than that, the last 2 weeks were spent cursing in the office for tons and tons of work to be done (I am just exaggerating but tons of work yes), and window-shopping around with mr sim. christmas was a boring affair. caught warlords on the eve and not really very nice. and on the day itself, was in town i believe. these days, i went town so often that i cant remember when i went.

last day of 2007 ie. yesterday. caught aliens vs predators 2 aka AVP2. and it was quite nice except for a few parts that i found them frigtening. then walked from lido all the way to PS and stopped there for the countdown. managed to catch glimpses of fireworks from where we are, though it wasnt that clear. and thankfully, my nokia 6500 slide didnt fail me like my nokia 6230i did previously on many occasions. at least the camera caught the fireworks. =) *hEe*..

Recap on 2007:

Overall, it was a very eventful year for me, a year full of emotions. Beginning of the year, i was trying super hard to cope with the last semester in NUS with 6 modules. almost died-ed with those modules especially for history but managed to survive somehow. though results were abit disappointing for 1 particular module, i was happy with my overall performance. work at hang ten was as usually busy with much nonsense going on, plus with my chinese new year "donated" to them and i wasnt really very happy. as usual, people came and left, and at a point in time, i felt all alone there. with the school term ending, i went on in search of jobs and was really demoralized at a certain stage. that was my lowest point this year, where i felt that i was really useless. i wanted to go back to school, because that was where i felt more secure. i guess the hit really comes from that company where i stayed for 3 years, and as a part-timer, i felt ashamed of that particular person, and felt insulted for the first time that i was there. to date, i could not let go of the anger in me.

i went on, and among companies who wanted to take me in, i choose a certain retail mail, and worked in the management. i thought i had the luck and most probably the luckiest person as i landed on my "dream job". however, work was really sucky and after 1.5 months of tolerance, i left because i couldnt take the nonsense. later, i came to where i am now, and i am grateful to what has been offered to me so far. from a beginner who does not know anything - till now, where i have to deal with many people, i have learnt many things. i am happy where i am now, though i know i was the happiest when i was in retail. and i managed to get into a course i wanted and currently pursuing it now.

for this year, i thanked all those who stood by me. first to mr sim, because he is the one who is still here after all the nonsense from me. even though we quarrel rather frequently at times, it makes the relationship stronger than ever. next to all my best friends (you know who you are). without all of you, perhaps i wouldnt be what i am today. and ironically, i want to thank the particular person that i am so ashamed of: thank you for insulting me and bringing me back to reality. i will prove my worth one day. lastly, my family - my mom for all the instant noodles, campbell soup for all the exams, chicken essence for every morning, constant ranting and nagging - though i hate it, but it means you care. my papa for all the dinner though it's the same food everyday. my brother for all the pillow fights.

it has been a wonderful year. and hope that 2008 will be even better.

Resolution for 2008:

- Be abit thinner
- Pack my room
- Earn more money
** seems like every year is the same, and i have repeating those resolutions for some time. haha.

Need to sleep now. Prepare for war at work tomorrow~~~

Update in point form

2007-12-16T23:47:00.000-08:00

doinkz. =)

i can finally send out the christmas cards soon. =)

tomorrow is the start of my course. =)

it's the season of buying and exchanging presents. =)

i need a good meal, and off from work. =(

my room is still so messy. =(

star awards is -haix- this year. =(

tomorrow i will eat bread with mr sim. =)

good night to the world. =)

Stardust + The Golden Compass

2007-12-10T23:30:00.000-08:00

doinkz. it's december already!!

alright. just celebrated the besty's birthday last week. -whee- met up with her, aries and tooty, like after months? anyway, it was a happy celebration + get together session. lunch at nydc, before that we went hunting around for the present (which we decided on a nike bag) and after that was neoprint session! as usual, we had fun taking neoprints. =) and, ries looks like some japanese girl now with her hair. heh. it's nice, so dont worry. i think it's cool, but i dont think i will ever do anything more with my hair. i am such a boring person.

well, watched another 2 movies after beowulf last last week. stardust and the golden compass. stardust is my super duper favourite. =) I also want to be a star. haha. and golden compass is a little disappointing after all the trillers. so glad that i still managed to catch stardust. i will go after a certain mr sim if i didnt, because he would have been the one who made me miss the first time twice. sounds a little complicated, but it just means that i am unsuccessful in getting the ticket twice in a row in a day for stardust. anyway, more movies to watch, but am getting broke.

it will be time to meet up with the jc gang again, this time with taitai, but i am really quite busy to make arrangements, so can anyone make arrangements before taitai flies back again? and this reminds me that i still have to meet princess ariel, sek lin, fat jason and some others whom i cant remember who are on the list.

work had been tedious in some way or another. =( especially in some of the stats that i am supposed to do. and, my work does not seem to decrease. everyday i clear most of it, and the next day, i have another mountain of work again. but again, this is the nature of my work. if i have no work mean sayonara liao~ =X and people kept asking me am i better now or better when i was an officer. haha. now = braindead everyday but still alive in some way (=continuous impact), then = alive everyday but once you meet a nasty one, will be super braindead which really makes you feel so dead (= one hit KO).

anyway finally one happy thing to cheer for. =) got into my course. -whee- but it just means that i will be even more busy in the future, even more braindead, and tired and poor (because of expenses) and whatever. haix. will i even be able to make it through? but thinking back, since i made it through the last 3 years, i should be able to too. if need be, i will do what is necessary to keep what i want.

and mr sim's first day at work today. -whee- i got a free poster from him. =) hope he has fun. at least when he is telling me about his job description and all, it does sound very fun, relaxed and perfect. what to do? i think i have -jian ming-.

anyway, super tired. need to sleep. good night world.

Last day of the month

2007-11-30T23:32:00.000-08:00

doinkz. last day of the month! and it's approaching December so very soon!

alright, so what have i done since the last update?

finally met up with si blyan, doris and jac. all are still the same. jac got a job as an analyst in the bank! erm.. sounds really fantastic to me, with good pays, benefits and good working environment. but too bad i am so not interested in bank jobs though i do envy the big bucks coming in. looks like i have some kind of 'jian ming' meaning that the jobs that i like to do wont earn me very big bucks, and requires alot of effort etc.

next, princess ariel wants to return to ht~. haha, me too! provided that they offer me a good option as what they initially promise and i dont mind more benefits too. hah~ but the thing is, i am actually quite comfortable in my position to move back to them. though i know the perks not that much now, but to think of it, perhaps i may have opportunities to move even further on. and come to think of it again, it all sounds too late. why only now when i have move so much further on? what happens to the past anger that i have suffered? like what targa said, being a Popcorn E, does not really sound and feel that bad after all. well, at least i am by myself, and not subjected to any other form of tortures/suffering/blah as compared to under (eg. old hack/hag). anyway, it's a tough decision if i really have to make.

work is not too bad. had slowly taken things under my care. and to my surprise, it isnt that hard after all. though sometimes i have to chase -you-know-who- for approval this and that. but i must say that things at work are pretty exciting ever since i took over. and i think it will continue to be that exciting. haha~.. -enough said- i do love my job in a way or another thoughj it's not the same kind of satisfaction as i have in retail.

and my course - $(%#%*($&^(#$^&%( i really wonder what is taking them so stupidly long. just tell me if i am not selected, then i can give up and concentrate on something else. though i really, really, really want to get in. just send the bloody letter. damned it. or at least have the courtesy to tell me. and speaking of such, heard that i might be going for courses in january. -throws confetti into the air- it just means less work. haha~..

then of course, very importantly, mr sim and i should reach a compromise somehow.

and, i seriously need to pack my room and stuffs.

anyway, i am taking off on monday. not to rest, but to accompany mr sim for a medical checkup. doinkz.

and tata. off to sleep. =)

Bad Saturday

2007-11-18T11:50:00.000-08:00

doinkz. had a terrible saturday yesterday.

was so super brain dead by the time i finished work, as the system was down since morning. and so, had to do everything manually. and what makes it worst is that we have to key in all these data again on monday. -argh- and since i was so brain dead, i couldnt be bothered to finish my work yesterday, and i foreseen a big workload on monday which is what not i really wanted.

anyway, to make my saturday even worse, argued/quarrelled with mr sim regarding little things again. but everything is fine actually. went to imm with him, and it still looks the same to me. guess i just missed imm for a while. since i had worked that for quite a long time previously.

by the way, now i realised how addictive audition is. helps me relieve some stress. haha. but i love maple still.

anyway, super short weekend rest for this week. hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!

Need to lose some weight

2007-11-16T19:48:00.000-08:00

doinkz. -tired-

haix. been feeling sick. =/ and according to the doctor, i ate too much fried, oily food and soft drinks. =/ and so, for the next 2 weeks, i am going to stick to porridge and soup only. anyway, i really feel myself feeling fatter by the day. i need to lose weight! so mr sim, if you are reading this, no more dinner after 8pm~ argh. so unhappy with the way i look now. haix.

then, on a happier note, i feel slightly less pressurized now, because i have finally resolved some issues at work. and i got a thank you card!! =P really brighten up my day. however, i really feel like slapping myself now because i should not have went to check my (work) email just now. now i know that i have a very difficult person to handle tomorrow. what's next.. next girl at work has tendered her resignation, so seems like nothing has been fixed for me yet. am hoping for some kind of stability too, and to say the least, am actually looking forward to the change, even though i am kinda sad initially.

lastly, am super glad for mr sim for his interview and definitely hopes that he pass through the next one. then i can look forward to my freebies. haha~.. just kidding. would be really glad if he pass through. on the other hand, i still havent know the outcome of my course application and i am definitely getting restless.

note for the day: drink more water and lose more fats~.. haix.

Stress coming.

2007-11-11T20:47:00.000-08:00

doinkz. now it really seems that i only blog every sunday. =(

anyway, still no news from a certain institution and a certain game company. let's hope everything goes well. =)

other than that, accumulating some amount of stress at work - though not because of the new position. been trying my super duper best to eliminate workload for the new girl but seemed that people are not cooperating with me at times. anyway cheers to my new successor for taking up her first case. i remember when i was also that scared when i first came. or am i less scared? haha. no idea. anyway, my deadline extended by another 2 days. and i must reduce the workload by one third, if not i would be so dead, and most probably my appraisal may end up shitty. and speaking of that, am thinking that i did the tracking of targets the wrong way, and actually feels quite panicky now. shall check it out tomorrow. but the heck is i am not working tomorrow. doinkz. i feel so dead suddenly.

and going back to play maple. =) tatax.

Changes in my life

2007-11-04T16:40:00.000-08:00

doinkz. into a new month, and new changes as well.

one month or slightly more in branch had ended. thought that the branch is a not too bad place. and of course, by the end of it, thought that my branch mates are not too bad afterall. well, and though i groaned at the idea of coming back to branch two months later, this idea has long been burst after maryann came to branch the other day to talk to me. regarding my transfer. didnt know if it's a good or bad thing. just told to me, and i thought might as well give it a shot since i cant make any decision. and so, now everyone knows about the transfer. it really came as a shock. i mean, i am not even 3 months old. well, just hope that i survive in my new team. and will definitely try to take things as they come. uncertainty. =/ suddenly the shocking thing became something else rather than the resignation.

on the other hand, things has been okie with my course. well, the interview was okie. really hope that i get in, and at the same time, if i can switch to what i want in life, would be really great. and regarding targa, so glad that i got him to try out the other interview at the game company. i was so stressed though because i pretended to be an interviewee and what's more, to fill up an application form when i am not even applying for a job is really scary. for the fact that i didnt even know what to fill up for the position. anyway, the video clips were really good, at least they are worth my efforts for my pretence to be an interviewee. got a free pen, courtesy of filling up the form. and the form never got submitted. haha~. performed disappearing acts somehow. =X

then, nothing much. am finally returning to HQ tomorrow. my slider is now at nokia centre. i am about to level up for my maple. i still havent start to play audition. and after looking through my emails tells me that i may have a horrifying day at work tomorrow. and lastly, i am hungry and going to look for some chips to fill up my stomach first. will update in due course. haha.

Well and unwell

2007-10-28T23:27:00.000-07:00

doinkz. again two weeks had passed before i know it. =(

and things had been well and unwell.

had some issues with the branch people, and i am rather pissed because it wasnt my fault. anyway, on the overall, things had been okie at work. still trying hard to hit targets and all. and of course, rumours had been going round that i tendered my resignation, and turned out that it was just a rumour. obviously someone cocked up somewhere, and i mean, i dont blame people for thinking that it's me. haha~.. but not yet, not so soon. i do love this job. just felt that something is missing at times.

with targa. ups and downs as usual. but on the overall, spent more time together than previously as we meet almost everyday before and after work. more bread eating sessions though. =/ and definitely need more suggestions on eating places.

then, met up with tooty, finally handed her her birthday present somehow. looks still the same, more hiao than previous though. then, nothing much, just crapped and revived the good old days conversation. met up with ariel too. her hair looks horrible. didnt know what she did to her hair in hongkong. like some kind of explosion. and good news from her that she is moving on to be a 2nd in charge. =) i mean, after all her trauma and injustice, maybe something really good for her this time round. and supposedly to meet more people this month. like sek lin. been ages since i said i want to go find her. like jac doris and si blyan. supposedly to have a gathering but got cancelled/postponed somehow. like aries/weisee, who are so busy for me. and who else.. not sure, but i know that is some list that i should go on..

just recently, heard many hot and juicy news regarding previous previous company. i mean, since i am out from there, i shouldnt be hearing them, but it seems that all my previous small birds (spies) are still alive. haa~.. still angry at a certain someone. seems that no matter how long time had passed, my anger cannot be easily extinguished. haix.

anyway, things are looking on a brighter side for me, as i finally heard some news regarding the course i want to take. other than that, i got to know that jenny worked in a game company. -omg- didnt know how she got in there. but may review my options. haha~.. and of course am trying to expand my circle and find out more about who is in what job/industry. must really try to do some networking. for greener pastures in the future.

lastly, i still hate squeezing in the bus and train everyday. thank god i am returning to HQ next month, but ET will be going to branch. =( doinkz.

Headaches days

2007-10-14T18:10:00.000-07:00

doinkz. and it has been so long since i last updated. =(

alright. nothing much happened this month, except that i am in the branch rather than the HQ at work. not too bad at the branch, more freedom and everything.. and though things havent been very smoothly there, i managed to get them resolved somehow. my partners for the branch are charles, qinyi and john, and charles had gone back end of this week and john will be coming over. not very happy working relations as i can see from the people, but as long as it does not bother me, i am fine, really. and transportation fees gone up as well as my daily expenses. I am so poor this month.

not to mention i bought a new handphone nokia 6500 slide end of last month. and it's retailing at $400 plus now with 2-year plan. I really did got a bargain from m1 the last time. haha. and to speak of handphone, targa just lost his, and got me and him to blame. me because i was rushing him to get on the bus, and him, because he was careless and always carry things in his hand, which i have told him 517832676542863 times not to. *Argh*.. so we are sorting things out how to get another phone, sim card etc.

And by the way, i want to do some advertising for targa. he is currently selling cars - both second hand and new cars. anyone interested please sms me. or if your friends are interested, please recommend them to him, because you will get a referral between $100 to $200 (depending on the size of car) if the deal goes through. =)

and to update why i havent been so diligent to blog is because i have a headache and giddiness which lasted consistently for 10 days straight. had been to a GP, then polyclinic (even got a referral to a specialist, but damned the hospital because the earlier date for me to see the specialist is next march which i think by that time, my head would have exploded) and being most recent, was even at A & E. and they said i am too stressed up (perhaps by work). so i need more water, more sleep, more medication taken regularly. and i was thinking that i am not very stressed up at work except for a few irritating cases. anyway, let's see how things goes.

and i wanted to blog very much about the morning rush and taxi drivers during this period when i didnt blog. maybe i will just blog about it the next time. need to go out soon, to have steamboat because it's my brother's birthday tomorrow. and i need to cut down weight. am getting fatter and fatter and it's horrifying. =X

tata, am out of here. =)

Going to the branch

2007-09-29T23:00:00.000-07:00

doinkz.

seriously things have not gone too well recently. and i really get headaches too frequently. so i conclude that either i didnt sleep enough, or i am stressed, or a third possible reason but not i want to come true: something wrong with my brain somewhere.

there has been too many quarrels over teeny weeny things. argh.

and seems that everytime i try to think hard nowadays, some wire in my brain will just snap, and i go through the whole stupid process of my head splitting. it happened last week during the training which earlier on there is some arguments and some mock up role play arguments, it happened a few days ago almost everyday, and it happened today. had my brain been overworked, or is that a signal to say that i cant take any more arguments to avoid splitting of my poor head. i know this doesnt sound like it make sense, dont mind me, it all makes sense to me.

and next month, i will be stationed at the branch. good luck to myself because i foresee some difficulties and i am somewhat alone without maryann and rachel to back me up. just hope that i will survive somehow. feel like puking blood sometimes - especially when i see no case. but this is my job, and i have to accept it. just know that i still have a million things to bring over on monday, even though most of my stuffs have already been courier over. =/

still going to meet targa in a while's time. supposed to be an happy occasion. and hopefully it will be. my headache is going to act up again.

Went to return graduation gown

2007-09-24T22:33:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back. =/

the last weekend was somewhat burned because i got training on both saturday and sunday. wasnt very happy at the training because i thought that all those participants were quite enthusiastic and i am one who prefer to slack at one side. anyway it was compulsory for me, so i tried very hard not to be sian. but i still ended up to be very bored, and drew pictures all over the powerpoint notes. and luckily i have a day off today if not, i can foresee myself dozing off while at work.

and so, since today is one of the days when i can return my graduation gown, i went back to nus. supposed to meet kris for lunch but she couldnt make it, so i went alone. and there werent much changes and i still hate the many flights of stairs. just that school of computing shifted and should have shifted long ago when i took computing modules. anyway, now the library have this tap card system, and i didnt want to take the risk that my card says expired or something, so i didnt went in despite i really love to. and, arts canteen didnt really give me the -wow- feeling. looks better, more like some kind of hawker centre, rather than food court. but i still choose to lunch at business for my favourite fish and pasta. and as usual, latecomers must forego the very nice honeydew milkshake. and so i had peach instead and it was too sweet.

and came home, played some maple, and went out again to meet targa. just came back from dinner. and maybe will play some maple before i go to sleep. work tomorrow.. and next week onwards, i am going to the branch. must be prepared for more challenges because i wont have maryann and rachel there. haix. on my own. =/

Update of the past 2 weeks or so

2007-09-18T15:01:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back.

seems like recently i am down with stomachache, headache, irritation/pain in the eye, aching legs, ulcer. of course they do not happen all together, if not i think i am super ill by now, and wont even have the energy to blog. but by the way, i am blogging now, and not working, because i got a MC for today. =/

work is alright. getting the hang out of it, but still not as confident sometimes when it comes to irritating issues. anyway, am thinking of getting this aquarium thingy to put on my desk. but i am still considering because maybe the only purpose for me to get it is to use it as a paperweight or just some pure nonsensical item for me to look at when i am stoning. =/

just came back from kukup the other day. saw some interesting stuffs like dogshark and kingcrab. but didnt buy anything much except some otah-otah. i am just giddy like most of the times because of the rocky ship, and i was so scared to walk along the kelong. the seafood was nice though, and would be even better if they offered crayfish. in all, i only spend a total of 49RM, because of the otah-otah, and because they bought us to a shopping centre instead of those usual shops when they sell those made-in-malaysia products.

things havent been going too well for me and targa, and it's alright now. and he sort of changed line even before he started, and i thank his uncle for that. and he is starting at his new workplace this thursday. =)

last of all, my room is still so messy. and my head is still spinning. and i need to exercise more!

Getting fatter

2007-09-01T23:19:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back again. =)

nothing much to update recently, except that got a shocking news that one of my good friend sort of got the sack. super unexpected, but somehow think maybe there is a turn of events now. then, been almost a month at my new job place. seems not too bad so far, though i still want a higher paying job. =/ and, bought lots of books recently (like again?) from both the chuang yi comics fair and the SIM open house today. and i have many unread books to begin with. somehow, i must stop myself from buying more books - because my room is already swamped with books, and i will go broke at this rate.

on another note, i think i need an mp3 player because it seems not very advisable to get a phone now. partly because there are really no phone that i like - apart from n7390, but it sort of got extinct somehow - and i think maybe it's more worth to get a mp3 player because my phone is still working fine.

lastly, i think i am getting fatter. haix. i need to go for exercise but i am so lazy.

Gained weight

2007-08-26T23:00:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back again.

erm, nothing much. just think that i have gained alot of weight. and i need to shed that piece of fat in me. =/ havent decided how to. of course, i wont starve myself. i love food. =)

and, havent been meeting up with people that i intend to meet up. where are all the folks? i dont think that i am the one who is super busy now. i mean, how busy can i be? not as if i am still stuck in hang ten/jurong point.

lastly, i found the song that i wanted to find so badly. twins - wo hen xiang ai ta. bought the cd at a fair last week at west mall for only 4 bucks. they should have more sales like this. you see, i support copyright at cheap prices. haha~.. -proceeds to sing 'wo hen xiang ai ta'-

"wo hen xiang ai ta, dan shi yan jing zai shuo huang, ying man bi yao rong yi a, mian de gan qing bian de fu za.."

Little updates

2007-08-23T23:54:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back.

not really super busy but just cant find the strength to blog. been busy with scouting out job opportunities with targa, and with the diploma applications. so far so good i guess. applies to him more to me. anyway, sort of finished training at work last week, so more or less on my own - though not really very stable yet. erm, my leg has been giving me problems - or rather the shoes too. either i need to standby many pairs of shoes so that i know which shoes are comfortable or.. i dont know, chop off my legs? of course i will choose the first option.

then, spending accumulated to some sum that i cannot explain. saw the terrible need to save. plus, i just received my super tiny weeny payslip (not even paycheck) from my previous company and to my horror - it's not even $200. can really go bang my head against the wall. =/ shall wait for the next one from my current company - may have to survive on grass and water and maybe air =( okie lah. actually i am not that poor. just exaggerating abit.

and i have managed to pack my room a little. but it still look pathetic. i need to throw more stuffs away. somehow, i feel that i need a month to clear my stuffs. =/

lastly, i am tired. and shall head to bed. good night to everyone.

A happy girl

2007-08-17T20:40:00.000-07:00

doinkz. been a while since i last updated. =)

firstly, 9th August aka my 22nd birthday passed. didnt have too many people celebrating with me, but i had fun to some extent. morning sux to a super large extent because i have super headache until afternoon, then met up with tooty and weisee in the evening. supposedly to meet aries as well - but aiya, she will treat me double next year. haha~.. took neoprints! and they are nice. i am too lazy to post them. (*refer to weisee/tooty's blog. haha =P)

next, i am so happy right now working for my second job! =) *hEe*.. though it can be stressful at times, i sort of prefer it because there are challenges for me to handle, but yet at the same time, i am rotating between two different sets of work on a daily basis, and i wont get too sick of what i am doing. pay wise, still alright, not really alot but hope that i can be confirmed sooner so that i can have a pay raise. benefits are good. =) been sort of like undergoing training (i think they dont want to scare me away), i am not scared, and in fact, i am enjoying myself. lucky me join this company in my birthday month so got sort of a mini-birthday celebration with the other August people. then, also got some freebies earlier (corporate pack). just to conclude, i am happy with this job and will stay until i am not happy.

anyway, been thinking of getting a diploma or something like that specialising in human resource management or retail management which is what i am interested in. had been sourcing for such information these days but think that i have found some reliable ones - but still in consideration. will go check it out with targa soon. of course, i would need recommendations too. dont ask me why i would want to do a diploma after a degree, i just want to do HRM but i didnt get into NUS school of business. i also like my communications and new media, but i just got so many things that i like and want to do. including next on the list may be driving, or that grade 3 music theory that i have put off since dont know when.

another happy piece of news - targa had got job interviews coming up. =) hope that he gets the job that he wants. i will give him moral support. =)

lastly, i have a long weekend this week. *hEe*.. saturday sunday and monday. but next week would be terrible - only sunday. but i still like my work schedule. lala~ =P

The long and short story of my first job.

2007-08-04T22:11:00.000-07:00

doinkz. and so i am back again. =)

first of all, i ended my first full-time job!!! of course, this is weird that i am so happy, but i simply decided that i had enough. and of course, i was super elated when i got the job in the first place because it was what i wanted, but turned out otherwise. and so, to unveil the mystery, i was previously working jurong point management as a brand assistant. initially it really wasnt that bad, and to some extent, i indeed enjoyed working there. but as time goes by, things got worse and worse until i decided that i didnt want anymore of such nonsense, and so, here i go.

but i thought that i would also feel happiness and nothing else when i left, and yet i was so wrong. i actually felt sad when leaving!! oh my god. what is wrong with me? that day when i left (last friday to be exact), i feel some sense of loss and as if, i am going to lose a part of me. indeed, life will never be the same again - be it more tedious or less, but i think i have somewhat grown a little attached to them.

the most important person there is hack (or hag). hack because she would hack into my tiny little space as if it's her and hag because i am trying to be mean and you will know what i mean if you just include an 'old' in front of the hag. anyway, i would curse and swear silently at her everyday, because it would always somewhat due to her that i have to stay back - be it zapping the articles, photocopying the forms, doing up cover pages, updating the database, pasting stamps, stuffing envelopes, whatever..

the next one is the producer - sherlyn. =) she is nice to me in every way. haha~.. and on my last day, she still bought me chips and treated me to lunch at ichiban. somewhat an expert in excel, but too bad she came into much later and i only got to interact with her for 3 weeks. we usually have lunch together - and i am rather grateful for such a lunch partner.

lastly, nancy. the oldest there, and the most emotional one to know upon my resignation. =P she taught me alot on how to use the printer. without her, i would be stuck there, jamming the queue. and thanks to her, now i am an expert when it comes to that model of canon printer. haa~..

anyway, this resignation showed me many things and somewhat enlightened me. the person who ultimately cares alot about me is hack though i really hates her sometimes. (i dont reject the myth/fact that she may be concerned because it means more work to her) anyway, that was more than what i expected of my boss, who didnt even ask a single word. seriously, at the end of it, i am actually more tolerant towards hack, and gained much dislike for my boss who doesnt seem to give a shit/pretended that i am somewhat transparent. to think that i respected her alot and yearn to be as successful as her one day. think i take back my words/thoughts/everything associated with it.

and of course, i was touched by this particular bt batok uncle - who was formerly on my hate list there because he shouted at me on the first day of work for no reason, and subsequently shouted at me for something that shouldnt be faulted at me. anyway, he is the only one who kept asking me about my resignation, and as far as i can remember, the very rare few that ask about my whereabouts and if i settle for lunch. didnt really thought that there will be people who care, because the environment there is so cold (literally/non-literally).

anyway, by end of the day, still glad that there are people like nancy and bt batok uncle who care (as they are not from my department). and i am actually the last person to leave the office on my last day. what the toot. and so, this is my first job that ended in 1.5 months.

To laugh or to cry?

2007-07-30T22:53:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back. dont know whether to laugh or cry.

to laugh is because i already gotten a new job -throws confetti into the air- despite i am still on this current job. am already serving notice, which is supposed to end tomorrow, but kind-hearted me despite being angered by some unreasonable requests or so, had decided to help them until the end of this week. and fortunately my new company had wanted and decided to wait for me. so i have no breaks in between. after i end this current one this week, i am starting work in a totally new environment next week. and i pray to myself that i wont have unfavourable/undesirable working conditions like this one. of course, i will not reveal where i am working until i left the place. ask me =)

to cry is because i still have 4 days left, after minus-ing off today. work is really a torture at times. not on my hands and eyes for doing up the database, but the mental mind that i need for tolerance against something/someone. and somehow my limit have reached the ultimate boiling point which i reckon that if i show my anger and violence, there will be nothing left (of whoever/whatever that provoke me). i m just so tired. days just crawled like years these days.

to laugh and to cry because i have finally finished reading harry potter and the deathly hallows in only about 12 hours! =) i got the book on saturday, and being the harry potter fan i am, i am really pissed that i only gt it last saturday which was like more than a week since it was first released. -curse my job- anyway, it's a wonderful book and sure lives up to the hype that it's getting, at least in my humble opinion. of course during these days before i get + read + finish the book, i am so pissed that straits times and whoever/whatever/whichever source is dishing out reviews and spoilers on the books. dont you people get it that some people dont really want to know what happens in the story until they read it for themselves? be considerate.

and next, to cry is because ammy went back to indonesia on sunday, and i was sleeping when my parents went to send her off at the airport. =/ wah lao. i really want to send her off, but i didnt really know + i was really super tired these days with work.

right now, cant think of anything else, except to sleep. and of course, 23rd month-iversary to me and targa. but right now, he seem to have disappear into thin air out of a sudden.

Need a break

2007-07-23T23:50:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am finally back. but no smiling face. =/

firstly, being pretty tied up at work. so much so that i dont really feel like saying anything more about it. just cant wait to get that tiny little sum of cold hard cash into my tiny little pocket. things havent been going very well at work. and i think i am calling it quits very soon. will not mention names yet in case of being accused of defamation/slander/whatever. but i think like i have moved on previously from hang ten, i shall move on now too.

next, havent been able to get in touch with anyone whom i am supposed to contact last week because my grandma just passed away last wednesday 18/07/07 18:50pm. funeral arrangements had been made and settled. though still upset at times when i come to think of her, but i am alright now. now i really feel a sense of loss more than what i said in my previous entry.

so in short, i am very tired. and really needs some rest. so far, had pretty good luck, though i havent quit my current job, 3 companies have called me up for interviews. but i dont think i will be able to make it since i havent resigned.

i need a break. someone give me a kit-kat please? i dont mind hersheys though. or ice milk tea.

Short entry

2007-07-08T23:34:00.000-07:00

doinkz. back.. just a short entry and i will go to do some other stuffs.

first, i did enjoyed work to some extent this week - on monday and tuesday while filming the video. other than that, i think work just sux to some unbearable extent until i feel like slapping someone. found a new friend at work - veron. =) had been returning home late due to work - again, am pissed off due to a particular reason, and inefficiency does not lies with me.

next, finally got my last pay from hang ten. nothing got to do with them anymore.

watched transformers with targa. really good~.. i feel so sad for jazz - the autobot that got tore into pieces. i like bumblebee =)

finally started watching the vcd that i bought the other day. pretty hilarious.

then, commercement today! but i got a freaking migraine and stomachache. had to happen at such important times. anyway, my father didnt get to take the picture while i was on stage because he was sitting too far away. to such extent, am quite disappointed. but partly my fault because i pulled my mum to the robing room with me, if not they should get the front seats. anyway - went to esplanade after that and took many pictures. went long beach for a mini-celebration just now, and i think my parents are more excited than me. went to develop the pictures taken from our digital camera, but doesnt look very good.

anyone want to take pictures with me in that graduation gown?

anyway, i dont know why, but i am feeling a sense of loss. must be because i know this marks the end of my studies - and i am actually pretty upset. suddenly i want to go back to studying.

Not very happy

2007-07-01T15:49:00.000-07:00

doinkz. i am back! =/

haix. so tired. funny right? last time i worked retail, long hours, me tired = acceptable. but now i worked in office, slightly shorter hours, me still = tired. in conclusion, no matter where or what i worked in, i am always tired. but it isnt to my expectation that i will be tired working in an office - basically doing alot of tracking and excel stuffs.

anyway, first day of work went smoothly. as from my previous post, got introduced to everyone in the office though i still have no idea who is who, except people in the same department (which is a pathetic 4 including myself -_-||), the HR assistant, HR manager, the information counter people, and a few others. monday was considered relaxing, because i got to walk around with whom i shall addressed as BS around the mall to see how the situation is like. so it was a la-la-la day for me.

second day of work - i have more to do, but basically still some excel thingie and tracking things. more or less similar to the first day.

and it was the third day of work - when i was super free before lunch time - not exactly, but workload is not heavy - still lalala-ing, and lunch with targa, and after that, it was when the most boring and yet intensive part started. for one reason or another, the printer and computer love to play pranks on me. so although i am quite efficient, but i was subsequently slowed down due to these two bloody machines. and in the end, got to work OT. and for us, OT = still the same pay, and being me, i dont really like to work OT. have better things to do, like playing maple =)

so yesterday was a half day at work, which at first i reckoned it could be a full day instead if i hadnt said that i had an appointment. it was frustrating not to say the least, because i just started work not long ago, and dont feel too attached to the company yet to do free OT. so yesterday was spent walking around the mall, distributing the stuffs that i have packed to the various corresponding tenants.

i am complaining because for the past two days, they didnt tell me earlier that i may have to stay until later. and i was supposed to meet targa on these two occasions, which delaying my knock-off time means depriving of my personal time with him, which also means a not-too-happy-targa, which also in turns leads to a not-too-happy-me, which may cause unneccessary quarrels and what-nots, which in the worst case scenerio, may lead to cold wars/break-up/i am not too sure what. haix.

anyway, if this continues, think i would have to seek greener pastures. guess what, tomorrow i have a project, so i have to reach at 7.30am, and if tomorrow i do OT after that, i think this is really not much difference from retail line.

These few days..

2007-06-27T23:49:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back.

the past 2 days, as well as today, were busy ones. monday, after the big hooah on getting the job i wanted (jurong point) was spent on packing my stuffs before going out to town in the evening to meet up with the long-time-no-see-a05 peeps - si blyan, jac, taitai. poor doris got food poisoning, hope that you are better! had food at fei cui la mian xiao long bao. chatted for quite such time, and time really flies! jac is now currently working at some bank, taitai and si blyan will grad soon. and along the way/session, i bought a frog money bank, jac bought 2! the night was spent cursing because the four of us couldnt get a cab, and had to call to get one. and when we did, suddenly all the cabs without passengers start appearing. =/

tuesday - yesterday was spent by going to the school to collect my graduation gown after my haircut at vincent and daniel. now i think my fringe looks funny. anyway, the collection of the gown is super hassle blah. =/ finally dragged that whole package home. then i went out again to take passport size photo. and that shop that i frequent usually had their camera spoilt/undergoing repaired, which made me rather pissed as i have to go to west mall - to face those very lousy attitude people in that shop. anyway, the pictures are disastrous (goes without saying). then i went home for dinner again before heading to imm to do some shopping.

today - first day of my work. a rather busy day for me. got introduced to everyone, and i really have no idea who is who except people in my department. still learning the ropes. and there are really many stuffs to do and learn for my position. challenging position - a super multi-tasking job i would say. haa~..

anyway, i am tired. just came back from northpoint having dinner with targa. so, i think i need to go to sleep. work tomorrow! and targa say i look more matured with the make-up. wah lao. just means chao lao right?. =/

Whee. a job!!!

2007-06-25T12:32:00.000-07:00

doinkz. -whee- =) i am a happy girl.

been to 2 second interviews since i last updated - for the job that i wanted very much as well as the job that i have no idea what it was about. consecutively one after another. thursday and saturday. really felt that i screwed up my second interview on thursday which is the job i really wanted. and on that same day, the other company called me up to arrange a second interview on saturday. well, guess what, i saw kevin - the other guy who was the same batch as me at the interview. and i also saw the malay girl who was the same batch as me. all the three of us survived! anyway, the interview went well etc, and i was recruited. havent turn down the offer yet because i am waiting for the other offer i really wanted. besides, not really very interested in that job because it was performance-based etc and income is not fixed blah. anyway, am really bouncing with job right now because i just received an email about the job that i really wanted. they want me!!! *hEe*.. so i am not jobless nor unemployed. -whee- well, according to the email, i will know more about it when i sign the contract. but the pay is revealed in the email - which is not much difference from what hang ten offer me. but the working hours are good!! at least i dont need to work full shift 6 days a week, and go for meeting once a week at 8am! and it's near my house~ (save on transport fee and time!). -whee- (abit ki-siao already)

and for the past few days, went out with ariel, met her cousin while we were out, and spent some decent time talking to her. hard to get her nowadays sometimes because that doraemon (her boyfriend) always come and fetch/find her, other times she is at work. =/

went to the maple fair over the weekend. didnt play the games in the end because they were too kiddy for me. went to verify my asiasoft passport and spin the 'zakum wheel' and got a waterbottle! played gachamob several times and when we are leaving, i won gachamob. if i havent make the move to leave and stayed for just another 20 seconds, that watch could have been mine!! argh. in the end, just won a wristband. and to my sadness/disappointment, the balloon sculptors disappeared when i wanted to get the balloon shaped in the shape of maple creatures. argh. =/ but i had fun though. =)

and now, i need to buy some office wear for my new job! -whee- though i havent sign the contract yet. and i shall go turn down the offer of the other job. -whee- and anyone have any idea where to get nice and not so costly office wear?

Interview update

2007-06-20T19:00:00.000-07:00

doinkz. i am finally back again! =)

this week has been a bo-liao week. went for an interview on monday. it was so difficult to get to the place, and when i finally did, i was surprised to find that the office isnt an exactly furnished one. look abit lok-kok to me. anyway, turned out that there were 8 other candidates before mine. two batches in total, my batch was supposed to be 4 or more, but ended with three including myself. group interview, rather unique i would say, my first time. and we are supposed to brainstorm for ideas together. doinkz~..

anyway, i am so looking forward to the interview tomorrow. had been waiting for days~ literally checking my phone and mail every single day for it. so i really hope that i can pull it through. -puts on my best smile- =D and, after so long, i finally found the maple machine!! those that you put in a coin and spin a toy out. i found three of such machines yesterday - right in bukit batok! oh my goodness, why didnt i see them last time? i went to so many places for these maple figurines - say that i am stupid or what, but i am collecting them. to my happiness - and unhappiness, i use $4 and got 3 out of the 4 classes. i was so happy that for the first 3 $1 that i have, i got 3 out of the 4 classes. but it turned to disappointment when i didnt get magician, which is the class i am playing. doinkz~ haha.

well, i am going for the maple carnival this week. guess what targa told me this morning?

him: i dont want to go to the maple fair.
me: huh, why? okie lor, then i go by myself.
him: huh, i go with you?

doinkz right? okie, off to .. pack things. tata.

More updates about job

2007-06-16T21:08:00.000-07:00

doinkz. so fast that it's already saturday! and the week is ending!

anyway, yesterday's interview went quite well, though i was a little nervous. and to date, the interview yesterday was one that i spoke the most out of those i attended. =) heh. happy thing was, she asked for my portfolio, which very unfortunately, i had some files missing due to a previously lost thumbdrive. that thumbdrive contained some many damned important files, including my very game - Cowboy X, i mean my group, as well as the project on food from the heart and some others. haix. tried to send her my portfolio after i got home from watching fantastic 4 - a rather good show, but a little boring. i was unable to send, and i panicked because i really like the job so much.

this morning, i called, but nobody answered and thank goodness she responded to my email. and i was at home!! so, we had several exchanges over the email and her responses seems pretty good. i am crossing my fingers, and praying very hard that i will get this job. =) -whee- if i dont, i am going to get so disappointed.

job aside, i just realised i bought something wrongly with my a-cash in maple. doinkz. now i wasted my credits. doinkz, but i am not sure if it is really wasted. besides that, i think i sent too many resumes, so now i got an interview on monday, and i am not sure which company or exactly which position i applied for. =( so i am going to check out the place tomorrow.

Looking up for a change!

2007-06-14T14:25:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back.. and finally things are looking up and brighter for a change.

been a week since i left. erm, have been bumming around for this whole week - occasionally playing maple, but sending resumes most of the time. so far, i sort of made an estimation because i lost count - should have sent about 60-70 resumes at least. abit exaggerating? guess not. beggers cant be choosers, and without experience, i cant really jump into any high position. must 'jiao ta shi di' start from the bottom.

and so, on monday that just past, i got 2 calls from the same company but different divisions arranging an interview with me. it was a vacancy for recruitment consultant. didnt really know that it was a position involving sales - but now i know. anyway, since i said beggers cant be choosers, i went for the interview. waited for quite a long time for both interviews - it was on different days by the way, so which means i went to the same place for two consecutive places. =X it went okie i guess, though i secretly thinks that the interviewers are quite stern and fierce to some extent. and they refused to tell me about the renumeration package, so i think i will not take the job if shortlisted - should be commission based, and i am really quite sick of commission based jobs.

afterwhich i also went to another retail company for an interview - but the terms sux, so i backed out and rejected. then now, another friend of mine is thinking of opening a retail store and seeks my help. but the point is, her shop will be open maybe earliest by september or october, and for me, think i should get a job by then. currently helping her with some planning and sourcing of information, but whether i would help her or would be able to help her in the future would be another question. anyway, my mother objects very strongly towards me seeking retail position. haix. of course, why study for a degree if i want to do retail? doinkz. anyway, haix, dont know what to say.

anyway, am feeling slightly happier today because i got an interview tomorrow~. *hEe*.. for the past month, it really sux - because there isnt any interview other than the prudential and the hang ten one. made me feel that i am really under-qualified and having a degree made no difference. now i feel slightly better. =)

Financial consultants - nice name!

2007-06-10T00:51:00.000-07:00

doinkz. seemed to update alot recently. must be too much free time, nowhere to spend. =(

anyway, watched shrek3 with targa today! quite hilarious but only towards the end. really like the part when the four princess geared up for a fight, especially sleeping beauty. targa also bought the shrek ears, but in the end, we didnt wear.. haha~.. and, we also went to sim lim where i became quite giddy after looking at some many items and i have no knowledge of what they are or what they do. met meihui (chen) in bugis and her boyfriend is really tall. -wow- haha~.. and she asked if i am looking for a job now. -.- of all things, reminds me that i am jobless now.

then, the online portal is hunting for financial consultants and what-nots, and many of such positions now have fancy names that made it hard for people to identity what they are. insurance agents then say lah~~~.. beat around the bush and lures innocent people like me to apply. =( anyway, i would never go and sell insurance. first and foremost, not interested even if i am jobless. and since the *p interview, i am now very conscious with my job applications. haix.

last of all, am going to sleep. feeling quite sleepy. good night to the world.

Bored bored bored

2007-06-08T21:41:00.000-07:00

doinkz.

alright. it's a boring day for me. stayed at home and maple-d the whole day. finally finished some quests. got plenty of sleep. attempted to pack my room but sort of failed. sore throat is still here - been here for about 2 weeks i think. or rather, havent been away since april. nothing much to look forward to except to watch shrek3 tomorrow with targa.

and, i am learning cantonese now (through flipping through some notes i printed the other times). maybe will head to nus library again to borrow some books on learning cantonese/malay/bahasa indonesia/japanese since i have nothing much to do these days. might as learn something useful.

okie. i am still bored.

Last days in Hang Ten

2007-06-07T23:26:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back. =) finally. and finally i get to sleep some decent hours, and play some decent maple, and eat some decent food, do some decent packing of the room.

okie. the last few days of hang ten was tiring. was busy folding clothes most of the times because of the shop review on my last day. *tmd - last day still ask me to do shop review. anyway, the shop review was quite well-done. at least i think so. the previous night, wanling went off earlier and left us there. doinkz, but luckily it wasnt that much (just much) left when she left. went home slightly past 12 and headed to work at 7am again. anyway, danny didnt come down. jenny and team came down instead.

by the way, i have officially left hang ten - because i finished serving my 1 month notice, and not going to continue with them due to certain conflicts/miscommunications or what-nots. am rather pissed off and angry plus super disheartened and disappointed about a certain someone. but well, i really apprepriate those who fight for me and my job for a cause. but it's time to let go. i thought that i would take a gamble for 6 months of my life because i knew that a direct promotion is now out of the question (heard the explanation like 10 million times and i understand) - but no, i was going to take up what is offered initially because 'wo xiang tong le' but apparently the agenda changed without anyone's except that someone's knowledge. i was really fuming, and pretty upset yesterday - and most angry that my last day have to end on such a note. i would pretty much love it to be a happy one instead. i have rest my case now, but i am still harping on it and think will continue harping on it for the next few days. -just let me vent my frustration/anger-

and, am still waiting for people to call me up for interviews. still sending resumes. i just need some luck. if i cant get a decent full time job at the moment, i will take up a part time and look while i find a full time job. thought that i would want to extend my part time contract with hang ten initially even though i am not taking up their offer but after all those had happened, think that things are pretty ugly at the moment - and i have no wish to make things uglier.'

as of current, shall pack up my feelings abit, and seek greener pastures. cant wait to go watch shrek3 with targa on saturday!

Long Entry

2007-06-02T01:26:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back~.. and it's already june. haix.

but at the very least, i didnt waste much of my time rotting away. in fact, i am quite tired from all the working almost everyday. but i will be rotting away soon - 6th june, if i cant get a job by then. anyway, got a piece of happy news to share - though nothing is confirmed yet. M1 called me up for a phone interview session the other day!! well, though it doesnt mean that i am shortlisted or what, this is actually one of the things that really cheered me up a little, when i dont receive any calls from the other applications. and now, i have to continue waiting for another week or so, and if by then, i didnt receive any calls, means i am not shortlisted. =( but -whee- i am really happy that they called!

at the hang ten side, things are not going too well for me. tomo came down last sunday with an alternative proposal which i am not too keen. imagine that i already wanted to turn down the initial proposal, and he offered me one that is even lousier than the first. -pengZ- anyway, managed to talk to hamidah who came by to help with the revonation set up. and she said she will talk to jenny again. and later on, got a call from wai jyy who is also very concerned about this matter. am so grateful to those who wanted to help me out.

work side, wanling treats me quite well, can see that she favours me over the others. =) anyway, a terrible incident happened while she was on off - so i had to fork out some money for no reason - when i charged less than 10 transactions that day. and, quite tiring these days due to the renovations and everything. and of course, super pissed off recently due to a transvestite who entered my shop. this bloody he/she/whatever, was behaving super suspiously so i went to serve her/him/whatever. not that i want to scold but *KNN, i asked he/she/whatever like 5 times what he/she/whatever wants, and he/she/whatever bo hiu me!! not only that, he/she/whatever was messing up my clothes, and i wanted to help to take it for he/she/whatever, and that bloody moronic idiotic faggot -renyao- jerked my hand away!!! not once, but twice, and after the second time i was like standing in a different position from before. nabeh. and she walked out after that. why do i always kana all the weird nonsense people? was so pissed.

and, finally got my off day today!! which means finally i get to see the doctor! went to the polyclinic and the waiting time was making me puke, with not very good services. after that, i took a super long ride to yishun on bus 852. ate with targa, then we went to watch pirates of the carribean 3. =) the long awaited movie, but turned out to be rather disappointing. i actually find spiderman better though i like pirates of the carribean more than spiderman. anyway, i am looking forward to harry potter - both the movie and book number 7. targa wants to watch transformer so i will watch it with him, and he shall watch shrek3 with him. out of a sudden, the movie scene seems to be producing movie either in series, or bringing those super power heroes (though we watched as cartoons while we are young) back.

anyway, it's really very late and i need to get to bed. good night to the world.

Second entry for the day

2007-05-28T23:52:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back again.

just realised that i am so stressed over my job thingie that i forgotten to blog about my graduation and results. got okie results for this semester i guess. am not particularly happy about a certain module or rather two, but am extremely comforted to know that i got a B- for my history! that's like wow~.. i thought i would get D or something. =/ am quite disappointed though no As this time, which means that i didnt get a single A for my entire NUS life. *Argh*.. think i should be glad for gender studies - B+, though i was hoping for A-. and what the toot, there are only 8 students in the class, and it was a freaking difficult module.

anyway, commercement of graduation soon! =) 8th of july is the day for my graduation ceremony. am happy yet.. worried for the future ahead.

and now, shall go and eat my corn. and head to bed. and .. stop worrying and sleep i think.

Need some sleep

2007-05-28T19:33:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back, so tired.. -zzz- finally got a half day off.

didnt manage to catch pirates 3 with targa. firstly, told him not to book the tickets because of the need to save some cold hard cash. so we met up last week to lunch in northpoint. had my favourite fish ramen again, then headed to suntec to meet annie for the iris scan. anyway, saw many nus under(graduates) there and i was like -wow- and look at me, i barely got a job now. *kns*.. anyway, took the iris scan and result analysis shows that i am quite healthy - but rather stressed. on the overall, the analysis seems to be quite accurate and maybe i will try to heed the advice given. haha~.. and targa proved to be more skeptical about it, or rather his face. anyway, stupid me saw this advertisement and we decided to eat at this particular restaurant, which is freaking expensive! =/ anyway, the chicken is nice and that's about it. the service sux! doinkz. so much for saving cold hard cash. by the way, i am really broke!!

then, had two days of work with the team. rather bad on saturday, but back to normal on sunday. and i am back to tip-top with 3 vips on sunday! haha~.. but i am rather tired these few days with the stupid work.

anyway, i was given a new proposal - but it doesnt make much difference with the earlier TROM offer. -sian- and, nobody has called me up for interview yet. am i that bad that no company wants me except *insurance? argh. but i really dont feel like i wanna sell insurance, not even try. haix. or should i just take a gamble for a period of 6 months of my time? if in 6 months' time, they keep their promise and i did perform, i can get the job i want, but if they dont keep their promise, it does not matter whether i perform. just that the suckiest thing is if i get promoted, then fine, but if not, i would at least have to stay on for another 3 months. so actually, it seems like 6 months but i am gambling 9months of my time. is it worth the risk? give me some advice anyone?

haix. i need some sleep.

Sprained wrist

2007-05-23T22:40:00.000-07:00

doinkz. i am back. =/

been a tiring weekend. sort of a killer week. the start of the week is not too good either. too many things to do, too few people doing them. haix. why am i working with such people? feeling rather pek chek sometimes. and, on a sad note, i am not selling as many vips as i used to, during to the given circumstances. but i am serving rather high volume of customers at one time.

on a happier note, i was suddenly supposedly to go for some training, which i think is ridiculous because i would have left hang ten by then. well, some rather complicated issues here, still waiting for an answer from them. in the meantime, i sort of sprained my wrist yesterday, and today i went to see a sinseh, so my hand is bandaged like some ba-zang. =/

then, on a sad note, nobody called me up for interview. so damned sad. =/ haix.

and, i am going fishing in maple now. *hEe*.. =) a long day at work tomorrow. haix.

New layout!

2007-05-19T00:15:00.000-07:00

doinkz.

i have done a new layout! =) *hEe*.. now talking to targa on the phone. just complained to him about those unhappy things in the shop. and now, i am so hungry. shall go and finish the 'soon kueh' that i bought in the afternoon. haix. there is a change in the boss for the soon kueh stall and now the soon kueh is not as nice as last time. still recall last time when i was in pjc, i always take orders for jac, doris and si blyan for soon kueh every wednesday. those were the fun times.

and, i feel so sad that i have to work tomorrow. tmd~ i really bu shuang.

Splitting headache

2007-05-18T14:20:00.000-07:00

doinkz. =/

yesterday was really terrible. =/ had a literally splitting headache. =/ other than that, things are not really well at the shop. was sort of "scolded" when i came. then, the kiddie's nonsense made my headache even worse. only good thing of the day was adrian came to imm to look for me. well, countdown to 20 days to end of hang ten. suddenly i never felt more than relieved.

anyway, people commented that i grew thinnner. erm.. i thought i am fatter now? =/

and.. maybe i will just head to sans bookshop later to see if i can get the comics i want. and, really need to pack my results. and i think results will be out next week. -scary-

Short update

2007-05-16T23:27:00.000-07:00

doinkz. i am back~.. so tired.

first, i am back in hang ten, currently serving notice to leave, while on the lookout for jobs. so on one hand, i wont starve to death due to no income because i still have abit from this, and on the other, i can continue to search for jobs without compromising on the time etc. then, as for my last day, i seriously have no idea when but think that it should fall on 6th June, so i must try to get a job by then.

then, i am currently addicted to fishing in maple. dont ask why. just think that it's fun.

erm, the colleagues at imm are okie. wanling my new in-charge doesnt sound or feels that bad to me as heard from others. the others - as usual. rex, just saw him today and no comments yet. erm, rather bored in the shop. and i am wondering if i took too long a break because i am actually feeling tired. =/ dont think i feel this tired last time unless i didnt take off for maybe consecutively one to two weeks. or something is wrong from my body? anyway, just want to complain that i have less food to eat because some parts of imm is currently undergoing renovation.

in the meantime, need to go jobstreet again and "hunt".. and i am still fishing in maple. =) think i want to sleep early today.

Job interview

2007-05-13T13:09:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back again. =)

so targa is back. fetched him from the airport the other day. and been out with him for the past two days.

then, i finally got my first interview~!! supposed to be something to be happy about. but i wasnt very happy and excited about it when i knew which company it is. =/ well, it was a mistake in the very first place. i saw this recruitment ad, and as my internet explorer disabled all pop-ups, i sent my resume to this recruitment ad, forgetting to check what the company does. =/ turns out that it was an insurance company. wasnt really interested in the company, but i went anyway, because i was hoping that it was other kinds of insurance other than those you and i saw on the streets. anyway, it was one of those insurance company. =/ and it turned out to be one of my longest interview ever, not waiting in the queue but talking to the interviewer. =/ i walked out of the interview room like almost after 2 hours. =/ the interviewer is quite nice, rather talkative, ex-grad from nus, so ended up "catching up" with me? =/ which, in the first place, i dont really know her?

anyway, dont think i am going to take up that position (financial advisor), sounds so nice but no thanks. =/

meanwhile, -sent more resumes-.

My Paloozahead

2007-05-10T01:55:00.000-07:00

doinkz. as you can see, i am boliao. =)

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yeah, targa will be back in 15 hours' time. i must be mad that i havent sleep at such time.

-broke-

2007-05-09T23:46:00.000-07:00

doinkz.

just came back quite some time ago from dinner with ries. so long since i last seen her, must be about a year ago? =X she remarked that i grew thinner, when the fact is, i grew fatter.

anyway, chit-chatted abit, more about myself, than her. next time ask her out must talk about her more. =/ then erm, hope she will find more things to do during her internship. happy intern-ing. suddenly i wished that i had done internship during my nus days. nus days are going to be over so soon. =(

then erm, i am so broke. just one week after end of exams, i think i spent about $150 on food (plus kbox) with friends? then spent another $60 plus on transport (concession) today. and haix, i havent got my new handphone yet. and i spent $60 plus on pre-paid card. anyway, targa's scary handphone bill came. $300+.. =(

i am broke, and so is he. so i think both of us will eat grass for the rest of the month.

Shitty life

2007-05-08T23:26:00.000-07:00

doinkz.

i wonder what i did wrong sometimes. people are happily making presents, and there goes someone, so insensitive, blurted something that is so hurtful.

so disheartened. (no, i am not upset this time because of no job)

*Argh*.. i feel like screaming. i just noticed a trend. whenever i am graduating from somewhere, my life seem to be in great chaos.

end of primary school - hurt by some friend, big quarrel with my mum
end of secondary school - hurt by some guy.
end of junior college - hurt by some friend again, stupid nus only accepting me at the very last minute.
end of university - hurt by some words, no job.

damned. my life seem so smooth-sailing on the surface. so how it feels so shitty inside?

Thoughts.

2007-05-08T16:20:00.000-07:00

doinkz.

i finally realised the usefulness of studying gender studies. or at least, i managed to find out the application of the concepts learned in that Spivak's reading "Can the Subaltern Speak?"

as she says, "speech is a transaction", meaning that nobody can say anything without somebody listening. and yesterday, i fully understand this when i suddenly felt that hamidah does not want to listen to me. =/

and, as Spivak also points out the problematic power relation - or whatever. i forgot what is the exact phrase, but remembers that it is something got to do with speech not equating to power all the time, and silence can be equated to power too. so hamidah's silence yesterday was indeed more powerful than what my words can say.

but again, i think i am the subaltern. =/ then i think again, i am not making any sense here. i think i think too much, until i got migraine everyday. erm, at this stage/point in time, life suxs. results will be out in a couple of weeks. and, i cannot bear to think of the path ahead of me.

Thoughts and more thoughts

2007-05-07T01:24:00.000-07:00

doinkz.

if you are aware of the time i updated, you probably would have noticed that i just updated not long ago.

supposed to be sleeping now. somehow feel abit giddy after playing WOW. WOW always make me giddy, even though i may play it for a while, because of the 3D graphics. i am just lousy i know. =/ anyway, am at level 4 (finally). am still figuring out how to control/play.

in case you are wondering why i am still awake, am making a little present for targa. =) he is going to come back in 4 days. one of the best things that could happen these days.

haix. i wish i didnt told him that i watched superman 3.

and tomorrow, i mean later, exit interview at 11. shun bian talk to hamidah. just now tomo asked me why am i wasting my time like that. haix. the transition is really hard.

Lost.

2007-05-06T23:49:00.000-07:00

doinkz.

finally plucked up the courage to call her. called her at 12 plus but she didnt answer. somehow i sighed a heave of relief. called her again at 5 plus, thought to myself that she was maybe busy and was about to hang up when she answered. =X tried to spoke in a calm manner, and thought that she was being nice. seriously, i think i got a problem. -accepting the transition of stepping into society to work until i retire. *oh my tian* (quoted from tooty) i know i sounded ridiculous, but somehow it seemed true.

anyway been out these few days. been out to eat sakae and watch spiderman 3 with weisee. (targa going to scold me, he sounded pissed that i didnt watch with him =/), then out to kbox with ariel and sek lin, and also out to billy bombers to tooty, and to family buffet at my grandmother's house today. so in all, i spent quite a sum on food these days. not to mention i havent got my new phone.

and, i seriously need a break. i feel so lost.

The decision

2007-05-06T12:06:00.000-07:00

doinkz.

one part of me want to accept, but the other part of me says no. i am afraid of this transition. asking for help is useless. everyone says there are pros and cons, and it's up to me. *might as well dont say* haix. anyway, sort of made up my mind. time to call her. =/

Shitty days

2007-05-04T21:17:00.000-07:00

doinkz.

my mood just sux these days. =/

with someone not trusting me enough..

with me cutting my leg accidentally..

with a terrible bad job offer..

i feel sad, disappointed, insulted.. and the brain tumour just acts up on the wrong day. i think i think too much these days. brain cells wasted on such nonsense.

now, who wants to hire me? not asking for much, just give me market rate. or even slightly lower, 2k and above. *Argh*.. shi bai. my right hand, when are you asking me out to kbox? i need to sing these shit away.

Further update for the day

2007-04-30T22:53:00.000-07:00

doinkz. i am back once again!!!

exams over!! -woohoo- time to burn/throw/tear the books/notes/whatever!!! *whee*.. last paper - haha, already long paper with i think 10 sections? but i left blanks for those i didnt know how to do.. especially the translations. somewhat died-ed there, the others.. erm, think still do-able, but dont know if the answers are correct. anyway, so glad that exams are finally over! but that also means bye-bye to nus! =) or maybe =( because it also means the beginning step to society!

anyway, i was super pissed off with the m1 people today. i went to get a pre-paid card, because i wanted to call targa without using my own handphone line as i would probably get killed by my mum if my bill exceeds some certain amount. so i actually "researched" yesterday on m1 website instead of studying.. and i still didnt understand it today, so i went to ask for information. i reached the shop, and i asked the info counter lady for the information. apparently she didnt know anything about idd. (what the heck? you work there and didnt know, expect me to know? hello, you are standing at the information counter) anyway, she tried to be helpful, but seemed more helpless to me. because i wanted to make the call to australia, and it wasnt under the us/uk free idd, she asked me australia is under us/uk right? almost fainted, though i thought my geography was bad enough. i told her it is a continent on its own, and apparently she was unable to help me further and went to seek help from another colleague, who managed to answer my query within 5 minutes. then i waited at the pre-paid card counter.. *knn*.. after waiting for quite some time, the person who served me ask for my ic - which i forgotten. and insisted that my ez-link with my face and i/c no cannot be used. *argh*.. i/c can be faked, but you think can be faked too? *Argh*.. super pissed. made me spend so much time at the shop, and in the end, i still cant call targa today. *argh*..

and now, just watched some tv just now. now playing abit of maple, and packing my stuffs. my mum kept nagging that there was too many things in my room ought to be thrown away. =X and i shall try to play world of warcraft though i get abit giddy by mere looking at the graphics because dear targa had paid 2 months subscription and he is in australia now. abit wasteful, so i am supposed to help him play, which i dont know how. let me go and research on the game first..

and, today, i am going out with my mum! doinkz. think i seldom did that. haa~.. and meeting friends for the rest of the week. ordeal out on thursday. wish me luck!

Looking so forward to today..

2007-04-30T12:40:00.000-07:00

doinkz..

i cant wait for 7pm today!!! suddenly i felt so blessed that my last paper is malay and not history. though the eyes are staring at malay stuffs, my brain keeps telling me that it is holiday time. so looking forward to today. lots of stuffs that i want to do. =)

updates later.

3rd paper down!

2007-04-28T22:38:00.000-07:00

doinkz. happy =)

3rd paper down today! woohoo! =) left with level 2000 malay, which is for me, quite difficult to some extent because i didnt practise writing (and neither did i practise my oral - which explains my terrible performance that day). and neither did the stupid tutor practise with us. *Argh*.. anyway, must bitch a bit about today's morning, if not i really bu shuang. =/

prior to yesterday's entry - the exam guidelines, one would have predict that one question per topic because there are 10 assigned topics. guess what? all kinds of nonsense questions came out. if not for doris' tip on the first question, i would have lost 6 marks, like 10% of the paper. and because she told me before we went in, maybe instead of losing 6, now maybe lose 3 marks? haix. not that i want to say, but the module is already difficult enough with no lecture notes - meaning we have to come for every lecture, stay awake and write fast and legibly.. and the tutorial have some other materials, and the stupid course pack is really thick, about 4-5 readings per assigned topic, so maybe 45 readings in total, and the exam have to be in a new format. yes, i know it's good that we dont need to crap essays out, but 6 lines per question. the problem is, who the toot can remember the video from first lecture? like about 3 months plus ago? and out of 45 readings, who the heck can seriously remember which author say what? and guest lecture's speech also included as a question? argh. thought that i had enough of this sociology shit during SC1101, gender studies and sociology of the family is great though..

never mind, i am done and over with it.

going to start preparing for my malay paper. am left with one day to try to take in as much vocabulary as possible. bless me. and targa will be back in 12 days! -whee-

Exam guidelines

2007-04-27T22:16:00.000-07:00

doinkz.

wah lao. exam guidelines for tomorrow's paper. what the.. haix. i am not even halfway through my readings. ke yi qu si liao. =X

SC3219 exam this year is not in the typical essay format.

1. Do NOT be a fluffer. The exam questions are set in such a way that either you know or don't know the answers. So do not pad, do not fluff, do not bullshit. They are also objective questions in good old fashioned sociological manner: so you would not be asked about your opinions. Instead you will be tested on knowledge of course materials.

2. DO write like journalist. If you have studied mass media (newswriting), you would know that journalists pack the most important information in the first few lines of their news article. In other words you have to be CONCISE. You are supposed to write 6 sentences, plus or minus, in response to each question. So plan your answers before writing. No lengthy exposition is required. You can notate your answers in point form. The examiner (grader) would not read beyond the 6 sentences (plus or minus). So don't waste time writing too much. In some ways, this exam is also a test in brevity, precise writing as well as knowledge of course materials.

3. DO be an evironmentalist. Save a tree. Do NOT write double-space. A compact answer requires single-line text. There are 10 pages in the answer booklet, and there are 10 questions you have to answer. If you ask for additional booklet, the chances are: you're in trouble cos you have written too much (and no credit is given at all since I will not read beyond the 6 or 7 sentences).

4. Write down all the number questions you have answered in the front of the answer booklet (there is a box column). This is for the clerks to add your grades. If you do not do so, the clerks may miss out your grades! Good luck.

wish me good luck man! =/

Second paper down!

2007-04-25T22:32:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back.

killed a second paper today - social psychology of new media. suddenly felt that today's paper is so much easier compared to that damned history paper. well, sort of relieved because i la-la-la these few days, so never finished all the readings. =X so glad that it was over, but suddenly i am like falling sick all over again. sneezing, coughing, and feeling giddy..

so doris, if you happen to read it, i am already furiously typing out the summaries, but i kept sneezing, and will get them to you soon. and i am so sorry for the lateness and everything. 2 more days to soci crap. i still cant imagine how to finish so many questions in 2 hours. kill me.

Can opener

2007-04-24T14:13:00.000-07:00

doinkz. *Argh*.. i want to complain!

not that i like to complain but.. *argh*.. why must can-openers be made in the way that it is suited for right-handers? left-handers need to open cans too okie? for goodness sake, after living 21 years of my life, i cant open a can! unless of course, they have this pull-thingy on the can itself. *argh*.. have to ask my mum to open a can of campbell soup for me every time, really feel very 'shi-bai'. =/ then i am so sick of eating instant noodles today because i had been at home for almost everyday last week, and had been eating eating instant noodles, instant porridge or whatever instant food, i decided to cook myself a meal today. and guess what, i am reminded of the fact that i cant use the can-opener. i cant open a can of luncheon meat. is that so difficult just to eat luncheon meat or drink campbell soup? now all of you know why i eat instant food more than i eat canned food. =X

anyway, i managed to find a can of tuna that have the pull-thingy. and the partially open can of luncheon meat is in the fridge now. *argh*..

Off to Australia!

2007-04-22T23:52:00.000-07:00

doinkz. =(

just came back not long ago from the airport. sent targa off. =( my parents and i (instead of his) sent him off. funny right? =X anyway, rather sad, started to miss him already. and, i bought a new waterbottle and a handphone sock at the minitoons there. i left my waterbottle in the lecture threatre the other day when i was coughing like mad, and my tic-tat-toe handphone sock seemed to be gone. so my new colourful handphone sock is supposed to welcome my new handphone for new month! *whee*..

in the meantime, 20 more days later when targa comes back. and in these 20 days, i would have finished my exams, bought my new handphone and most probably started work already. haix. unless of course -choy- nobody wants to hire me. he is on the plane now. he called me just now. =(

and now, back to typing my notes.

History paper gone!

2007-04-22T12:28:00.000-07:00

doinkz. back again~ =)

finally, the history paper is gone~ forever and for good! for the past few days, i was cursing and swearing at the module. why? because i have about 4.5 days to study for the paper, yet i couldnt finish alot of it. yes, i would argee that i couldnt finish studying for most of the papers because i have final term paper to write before that, but history.. really too much. readings too much, concepts too much, and understanding the pile/stack of notes/readings require too much too. yesterday morning, right before the examinations, i was sitting with the group of history majors in my class, and they said that it was like the hardest history module in the whole list. =( and they said that it should be level 4000 or something based on the intensity and difficulty of the module. and i was like 'doinkz', utterly speechless. anyway, the exam, was super difficult, according to me, since i have that history phobia. i was so stunned because i cant answer any of the questions. pardon me, those who are sick of me complaining about history can skip right to the next paragraph. anyway, all the questions are comparison questions (fine!) we studied a total of 4 countries and at least must use 3 countries! no repetition of materials. *argh*.. and we are supposed to answer 2 questions. so if you see, if you answer question 1 for india and china, you cant answer write the same example for another question, say if you use india and australia. the worst thing is, for 2 of the questions, the questions specified to use indonesia, and i didnt finish studying for indonesia. so it's like gone case. then for the other 2, which were the ones i attempted, i knew how to answer only half the questions. argh. i feel screwed. this stupid history is so going to pull down my CAP, even though i am not staying for honours, but still, cannot get lousy results right?

enough of history. yesterday went out with targa to imm, to buy things for his australia trip. he is flying off tonight! =( anyway, went to hang ten as well. wah lao, the shop is undergoing pre-renovation sales again? =/ anyway, super messy in the shop. saw ash, and apparently didnt want to see him. the other folks are gone, left with liang wei, who is now converted to hang-ten kids. and the new trom, edwin, asked me like 10 dozen questions. doinkz. dont even know him. =X anyway, then we went watsons, brought many small items. never knew that watson now have their own products and i mean, like handwash, hairwash, toewash, whatever you can think of, they have it! watson becoming a brand sia! then we went to hoyashiba or whatever restaurant it is. $16 and both of us are full like dont know what! and very delicious too! anyway, targa squashed my $1.50 chawamushi! =/

have to mention that the other day, i went to the tie-da too. =/ as a result, i couldnt really walk yesterday. not to mention there are like 1000 flights of stairs in school. okie i am exaggerating but there are really alot of stairs in school. then erm.. the major illness have really caused me much. 2.5 days of MC + no work + incentive gone + been to the doctor 2 times + injection + A&E admission + tie-da. how come tie-da is included? because it was the side effect of that injection. argh.

anyway, 3 papers to go! and jiayou to everyone else too! meanwhile, have to send more resume. =(

Pre-exam update

2007-04-18T23:37:00.000-07:00

doinkz. what a horrifying april!

final term papers are gone (finally). i seriously wonder how i managed that ethics abortion paper in 2 days, as well as my gender studies paper in 2.5 days, well i took a week to do that history paper. speaking of history, got some nightmares of it the day before. and got back that horrifying history term paper - got a C+. horrifying indeed. never in my life in nus, did i get a C+ for my paper. had to be history. now i am panicking for the history paper on saturday. have no idea what to study, how to study for it. and my friends in the same module, who are history majors, told me they are scared for the exams. well, i think i am more scared - always have this history phobia. if i can re-wind this semester, i would choose to take philosophy instead. haix. why did i drop it in the first place? argh.

anyway, exam dates as follow:

21/4 - Saturday - HY3245 Engendering History, Historicising Gender
25/4 - Wednesday - NM2209 Social Psychology of New Media
28/4 - Saturday - SC3219 Sexuality in Comparative Perspective
30/4 - Monday - LAM2201 Malay 2

am looking super forward to the end of exams! though more forward to this saturday.. because the history paper would be dead by then. now i have to go back to tackle those 4 countries.. Sian!

Simple update

2007-04-15T00:28:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back!

super duper busy for the past week, reason being that i was sick for almost 2 weeks, so this week i was catching up like siao with whatever last lectures, tutorials, presentations and papers. and the tuesday that just past, i was still so sick on mon that i decided to head to sleep and wake up at 6 to collate the slides from kris. guess what? presentation at 12 and i finished the slides at 10am! =/ amazing. and what is more amazing is that without preparation/script/or whatever, i managed to pull off the presentation! in fact, i secretly feel that our presentation (me and kris) is the best! =X somehow the other two groups didnt present to be very confident. haa~..

and due to the illness, and presentation whatever, i only have a day to complete a 2500-3000 words paper. and i did it! along with that, i had to prepare for my malay oral as well as a 500 words news commentary. i must be genius! anyway, i did super badly for my malay oral because i needed prompting and i cant say what i want to say in malay! picture description as well as conversation. haix. and i passed my malay written test! the one that i went to take despite i was almost half-dead! whatever it is, the workload for this test way exceeds my capability to do so. i really wonder how i managed that 2600 words paper in a day. now i got another 12-page to do. and i still cannot understand spivak which is very much required for the paper! and that's after even reading her 3 times.

whatever it is, i shall try to use my genius skills to finish the 12 page paper by tomorrow so that i can start revision for history. everyone who knows me will know that my history sux. and why did i choose to do this module is really unthinkable. anyway, since what is chosen is chosen, just have to make the best out of it.

exams in less than a week's time. really dread that. targa's flying off to australia in a week's time too. just want to spend more time together but have to start revision. haix. wished that i had pay more attention in class sometimes.

and there is this stupid mosquito in the room, which keeps biting me. i swear i will squash it to pieces if i happen to hit it.

Decent update

2007-04-05T22:21:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am glad that i can finally do some decent updating. =)

had been busy with projects, papers, school work, work, and dont know what. just got over some oily auntie incident that made my blood really boiled. =/ then, heard horrifying news and stuffs like that. got back certain grades too. flunked my test!!! *Argh*.. in my whole life in nus, this is the second bloody test that i flunked. both my major. both flunked for the same reason: didnt study. but i think i am going to flunk a third one - malay. it was really too difficult. and with my illness dragging for (today is the 5th day already), i reckoned that i am too tired to go on. just imagine, due to this illness, i have skipped 2 lectures, 2 lectures, half a day at work, and the list goes on.

fever on and off, and been coughing non-stop. yes, seen the doctor twice. got a jab too. drank plenty of water already (bloated like some zhui-tang now), rest alot too, but i am still not recovering. the cough - is the main main main culprit because once i start, i cant stop. and i cough till the extent that i am going to vomit my lungs out. so everytime i cough, my stomach feels freaking painful, and i will be automatically full because the pain way exceeds my hunger. argh. i need help.

just glad that my history paper is finally done. that paper may be the cause of my illness because i stayed up late very single night either doing reading or typing away endlessly. because of that paper, i suffered in sleep every night. and not to mention, that stupid by-shelving-by-stack stock take is over! and peter is gone, so is hien. and i will be gone too.. soon. =)

last but not least, i miss targa. =/ never get to talk to him much because i dont have voice these days. haix.

Zhui Jin - Recently

2007-03-21T01:16:00.000-07:00

doinkz. happy birthday ries! i mean, happy belated though i wish you yesterday. =)

alright. nearing the end of march soon. and all i want to say is "wahh laoo, why time passes so fast?" not really prepared to hand up my end of semester papers, not really prepared for exams, and not prepared for graduation. haix.

and at this weird hour, i am hungry! dont want to eat any supper because it will never get digested before i go to sleep so it will add on to my fats. and.. think i am suffering from the pre-graduation blues. really feel -sian- on one hand before i dont know what to do after graduation, though really glad that i didnt have any more school fees to pay. =/ well, went to see hamidah last week. really offered me an ROM position aka retail outlet manager. still considering. haix. just dont want to be tied down to the same company again. =/

anyway, i think i am suffering from post-proposal blues syndrome. have been busy with my gender studies proposal on the magdalene sisters, so i had been reading up furiously on this subject, as well as watching the dvd and the documentary for quite many times. and now, after submitting the proposal, my brain cannot revert back to history, which is something i should really focused now. *Argh*.. and i need to catch up on my other modules too. had been neglecting them quite badly.

and got a B for my ethnics mid-term essay. lucky escape i would say. heard that there are many Bs in the class as well. so i have to buck up for the final paper, if not i might ended up as a B- or even C because i dont really speak up in class. haix. i hate speaking up in class sometimes.

by the way, think i shouldnt linger around here too much. should go and finish my sociology tutorial assignment for tomorrow. a long day again tomorrow. just dont feel like going to work sometimes. just hated it when there are not enough staffs. and when peter is on off, the stress is all on me. =/ haix.

and, been listening to a particular song recently and never gets tired of it. Li Sheng Jie - Zhui Jin. "Ni xiang yao de wo que bu neng gou gei ni wo quan bu, wo neng gei de que you bu shi ni xiang yong you de.."

Tiring, very tiring.

2007-03-13T19:29:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back. super duper busy these days. haix. =/

recently, had been very stressed over some friend of mine. but i decided not to care anymore since it is really none of my problem. also stressed about school work, especially last week. almost puked at the amount of work that i had to finish. am quite relieved now since last week had past. but right now, i am stressed about the gender studies project. argh. why did roy pick our group?! *Argh*.. why not ingrid, not ryans? =/ doubly stressed. besides that, have tons of other work and readings to do. and i really never seem to finish my readings. much less to revise for exams. *Argh*..

went to sentosa with targa last friday. nothing much, but just walked around and enjoyed the scenery. had a long talk with him as well. some serious stuffs. and anyway, am so sad that the twin towers is gone! i mean, i didnt know that. must be living in some cave. and, sentosa changed quite abit too. no more monorail - i know that. but now, they upgraded to using something like ez-link card for entrance as well as riding the trains. pretty convenient i would say. and yep, not to forget the musical fountain. we went to watch that show and it was cool! the last time i watched the musical fountain should some ten to twelve years back? =/ in short, had a great time there. =)

then, what else. work was tiring. the new staff quitted. =/ bah. then ah boy left. so now it's me, peter and carman. got a new staff yesterday. another malay girl. forgotten her name, but i will know it tomorrow. as well as exit interview on thursday. heard that hamidah is going to talk to me about it. then erm.. what else. just need more staffs in the shop. very tired of serving customers sometimes.

then, now think i need to go off and do research on my part for the gender studies proposal. seemed that i am on track, but need to add in more stuffs. and i desperately need to know what the topic for my history and ethics paper. for goodness sake, i just want to start early and get everything over and done with. tata.

Stressful update

2007-03-02T23:27:00.000-08:00

doinkz. am finally back once again.

just a while ago, it was near chinese new year, and now chinese new year is almost ending! =/ so to start, mid-term break (which wasnt really a break) ended. and my mid-term paper is really shit. finished it just 4 hours before handing it on monday 9am. *chants and curses*.. and i exceeded by 60 words and i dont care. references was done rather weirdly and i dont care too. as long it was handed up, and it was late too, by 25 mins. but still in time before the mailbox wasnt empty. haa. and, nothing else done during the break, except meet up for projects, which turned out rather badly. i mean the results/research of the project. that is the reason why i hate sociology projects. out of a sudden, i just want to anti-sociology.

and nothing else done, which includes gender studies proposal, history readings and tutorials, social pyschology of new media test, sociology readings, summaries and tutorial, basically all untouched. adding on to my stress, have my programme to do. and notes to print and re-write and i dont know..

and been somewhat at odds with targa these days. and got me very pek chek sometimes. now we are back to normal. but, days like these just made me more stressed. not to mention, work sometimes also add on to stress, especially when peter has to go for his stupid training and class. by the way, i am somewhat offered 2 positions - still considering. haix.

think i need to play games to de-stress. but i have no time. back to hit the books/notes/readings.

Sociology sux.

2007-02-22T13:20:00.000-08:00

doinkz. am back once again..

targa says my previous entry sounds desperate. but i re-read just now, and still didnt think that way. well, just think that maybe our frequency abit different sometimes. and to clarify, i am indeed worried about my future, about securing a job, but not to the extent of being desperate. am writing my resume too. =) and will send it out when i see suitable applications for job. somehow, the future seems very bleak. am afraid to step out of my comfort zone sometimes. =/

then, on a more -sian- note, i hate sociology. not the lectures and tutorials, just the projects. need what methodology, analysis blah. i just think that it's very troublesome. and why cant we write a paper - just the way we write a paper? maybe that explains why i took up communications and new media instead of sociology though i am quite interested in sociology. 2 more projects to go for the rest of the semester. and sociology is one of them. out of a sudden, i wish i had taken up geography for my gender studies supplementary modules instead of this one. totally sick of writing.

and my term paper for blogging is supposedly due tomorrow. thank god it was postponed till next monday 9am. because - i only have 10 words on my microsoft word now. even this whole blog entry is longer than my paper. doinkz. life is so sad.

Holidays update - so un-holiday

2007-02-21T01:58:00.000-08:00

doinkz. am back (finally)..

well, all the holidays seemed to come together.. not really that great though. valentine's day, chinese new year, mid-term break. i would rather they are separate holidays so that i get more rest. =/ and kaoz. i was working on valentine's day, as well as chinese new year, and almost most of my mid term break. *Argh*.. and i got a project to discuss, and a mid-term essay to write, with also 2 mid-term test after the break. *Argh*.. what the toot. thank god that i have killed 2 projects before the mid term break.

valentine's day. not much of a celebration. was in school then was at work. because of the lack of celebration, got targa pretty upset. he got me a bouquet of flowers. =) my first real flowers. haha. as well as a keychain. i postponed celebration to friday, which wasnt really much of a celebration, just a little surprise. haha.

anyway, ariel went back to malaysia for chinese new year. so bored without her around. and i actually forgotten about her birthday!! =/ anyway, made up for it, but i havent give her the present yet. *argh*.. and speaking about friends, just came to know about a rather-used-to-be-close-friend had broken up with his girlfriend. heard that his girlfriend actually two-timer or something like that. then, other than that, a friend of mine ran into some problems with another friend and now acting like strangers. then, i didnt have time to meet up with doris and si blyan. =/

workwise, so far still okie. am getting used to peter. so now instead of -60%, maybe neutralize to 0% or 10%. seeing a little good side of him, though i wouldnt approve some of the things he do. actually having quite alot of laughter in the shop, but something is lacking, have no idea what is that. =/ the new china girl is better now. wanted to laugh at her whenever she wake up from the storeroom or after she run, look like some ang-ku-kueh to me. and ah girl is leaving this week. and ah boy 2 weeks later. what the toot. i am going to be stuck with peter and china girl. and i am finally going for my exit interview. one side of me wanted to leave, but the other part of me hope that they will ask me to stay. abit stupid right? but peter didnt really ask me to stay just now when i told him. doinkz. then tomo didnt say anything. then. think it's time to leave! =) though secretly i hope wai jyy will keep her promise to me. do i want the job badly? no, but i think it acts as a back up. and for a fresh grad, the pay looks promising. i mean, not that high but seemed not bad for market rate. =/

then project wise, havent done anything till now. same here for the term paper. going to puke. how am i going to finish? have to chiong all day lor. haix. that is when i am not working this week. and that leaves like thursday and friday morning. have to crap 1000 words out for my mid term essay. doinkz. havent even done research. such a good girl i am.

and at this unheavenly hours, i am actually hungry. argh. =/ should i eat? think i shall go offline and decide.

update on my school (hectic) life

2007-02-12T22:04:00.000-08:00

doinkz.

am sick. down with flu, sore throat, cough, headache. must be due to the lack of sleep, tons of assignments, massive worries, some emotional issues and hectic lifestyle.

and guess what, i went to class without knowing the venue of the class. i thought that the meeting for history presentation is 9am this morning and panicked because i havent done my fair share of work. got to know that it was tomorrow after much panic. thought that the resume workshop is today too, and was going to skip it and going for some make-up one and turned out it was tomorrow too. was in such a terrible state, so came home after my tutorials (because they take attendance), sought help from reena to help me take notes for lecture, came home and rest and guess what? there is a project meeting today for my ethics module. -toot- i thought that it was tomorrow. apparently there is one tomorrow, but i forgotten the one today. things that i should have remembered - i didnt, and things i should have forget - i didnt too.

and just some thoughts. recently in all or most of my classes, the lecturers talked about getting a new perspective by talking to different people. and by different people, they meant talking to people different faculty or gender or age etc. i think that is rather useful. that is why i always talk to kris about work. made me see something new.

and got a problem at hand. i mean 3. gender lecture tomorrow - readings done, analysis not yet. project meeting (history) - halfway through my set of readings, no analysis and havent read the other readings. project meeting (ethics) - havent done my slides, and have no idea what i am going to present because i was absent for meeting today.

great. plus tutorial on wednesday and i havent done the readings.

readings readings readings. i am just going to go crazy and guess what. mid term paper due next week. havent even decided on my topic. yeah! school sux.

not sleeping tonight

2007-02-10T01:55:00.000-08:00

doinkz. am back.

guess what am i doing in the middle of the night at 2am?

instead of doing my readings which i desperately needed to, instead of sleeping when i am utterly tired, instead of doing all the things i should be doing, i am online playing maple story because i didnt want to sleep.

just feeling very upset. and dont feel like sleeping early. i know it will have adverse effects tomorrow and in days to come. i need fresh air. but i have a nose block right now.

no life update

2007-02-09T12:20:00.000-08:00

doinkz. am finally back. and blogger force me to upgrade to the new blogger. *Argh*..

anyway, been very busy in school with projects and what-nots. 2 presentations due one after another next week. some term paper due the week after. test after the mid-term break and proposal due i think next week. but i should be glad that at the very least i wont have everything cramped together like last semester where i almost died-ed due to the amount of deadlines i have. made new friends through projects, though i prefer to be anti-social. lessons so far are quite fun. still love malay, but i have a severe lack of time to practice them. it's my most neglected subject now. *Argh*.. the rest of the modules seemed to get a fair share of me. and this semester, i actually managed to do my readings! that's like -wow- but i almost puked, at the amount of readings i have. and the difficulty too. especially the stupid gender studies reading. what the toot is spivak writing about? talked about her every lecture and tutorial and i still have no idea. wth..

work wise, the shop is like shit! yeah~~ shall wait for them to run out of bank-in slips, wait for the rats, mice, cockroaches to infest themselves in the storeroom. utter mess in the shop and peter does not care. what the toot is he trying to do? i really cannot stand it. it is not as if the sales is fantastic. it is not as if i see effort in maintaining the shop. yes a salesman i would agree, but definitely not a storeman. i dont like peter. if only he stopped standing at the cashier (cashier manager), if he stopped making those calls, and start to fold the clothes, help to tidy the shop, open the stocks, and finally lecture his staffs to stop posing as mannequinns and statues, then maybe my liking for him will increase by 5%. currently, it has dropped to -60% since he first came which is 30%. and everyone is tendering! yeah~ might as well just close the shop. *f. the by-colour-by-size stock take is coming.

then, relationship wise. not really going on well, dont seem to be able to communicate effectively.
*Argh*..

and no school today (finally). and should be going out soon to get a belated birthday present for princess. to think that i am so busy that i forgotten her birthday. *Argh*.. and, of course, need to do my readings for next week. so no-life.

Quick update.. What the toot.

2007-01-23T21:46:00.000-08:00

doinkz. third week into the semester and i am still alive! -whee!-

anyway, still getting used to school life this semester, terrible thing is, i have to go to school every freaking day. *Argh*.. then, what else, my modules for this semester is very siong ar! lots and lots of never-ending readings. =/ what the toot. and xd3102 is scary! very scary indeed, and very intimidating with only 8 students in class with 3 lecturers and 1 guest lecturer. i seriously dont see the difference between tutorial and lecture. then, the rest are really quite intense, which sometimes i dont really get what is taught too. major achievement this semester because i am actually taking history which i sweared never to, after victor koh's lessons 3 years ago. and malay is still as fun as ever, but i had already forgotten most of what i learned in year 1 semester 1 and you can see why because, now i am already in year 3 semester 2. and not planning to do honours because i cannot imagine myself spending one more year just to get third class honours.

then, not much of social life. just watched a few movies with targa recently. like pan's labyrinth, curse of the golden flower, death note 2. then things are not going really well, but they are okie now. =/

work wise, am planning to quit. yep, been saying that for some time, but i need the cash lar. =/ anyway, papasmurf had been transferred out to lucky plaza and now, my new boss is peter. =/ not too bad, but not too good too. there is also some tension between the two of them. plus things are not going too well in the shop. for example, havent seen haney for like almost 2 weeks? then aiya, just felt like slapping some people in the shop sometimes. =/

and, my reading list is not completed. i need to find readings .. cant the lecturers spare us some trouble and compile a course pack or something? haix.

okie, time to go. and last note: i accidentally deleted my maple character! *Argh*.. going to slap myself. shun shi can zhong! =X

A suicidal semester

2007-01-11T19:07:00.000-08:00

doinkz. am back!

alright, i hereby conclude that this is a suicidal semester in nus to begin with, with me changing my timetable like everyday - due to the preallocation, allocation, bidding, and dropping of modules. so i am like -wtf- and cursing and swearing almost every day because i absolutely didnt know when i am free or am not, or where my lectures are, and what lectures i am attending and whose in my class etc. and to add on to my stress, need to appeal for a module that i need to graduate in this semester, and the bloody nus people are reducing all the tutorial slots due to various reasons or what-nots. and, on a happier note, at this moment in time, 7pm today to be exact, i have finally settled my lectures. and i will start bitching again tomorrow about the balloting of tutorials and so on, and maybe i would need to drop malay 2 just because of some stupid tutorials. so currently, my list of modules are..

Module Code : LAM2201
Module Title: Malay 2

Module Code : HY3245
Module Title: Engendering History/Historicising Gender

Module Code : XD3102
Module Title: Gender Studies Across Disciplines

Module Code : NM4204
Module Title: Ethics in Communications and New Media

Module Code : NM2209
Module Title: Social Psychology of New Media

Module Code : SC3219
Module Title: Sexuality In Comparative Perspective

*argh*.. and i wasted my bidding points here and there because i bidded and dropped like don't know how many times. and after attending all the lectures, inclusive of those that i have dropped, i concluded that this is going to be a suicidal semester because i have tons and tons of readings. to add on to my stress, i still have work, cca, blah blah blah.

and, so looking forward to a free day tomorrow~ yeah!! finally a day without school and work. =) would be going out with targa to watch death note 2. *hEe*.. and now, perhaps it's time to fill up my notebook with the new timetable. and i need new stationeries, amos cookies, and more pocket money.

A brand new year

2007-01-06T03:23:00.000-08:00

doinkz. am back. and it seems a little too late to say happy new year. =/ but well, it's 2007!

so 2006 came and left, all i can say is 2 semesters gone in school, yet another year in hang ten, older by a year, and a year stronger in relationship with targa. erm, other than that, got to know more people, in other words, more people entered and left my friends = those who i know in school and work = hi-bye friends. and what else, cant think of much.

so 2007 came. and started quite badly too. was quarrelling with papasmurf on new year's day or eve i think. well, not too good a sign. and exams results were out. not too great, but not too bad. all variations of B. to my very great disappointment, no A again. i want an A so badly. *argh*.. then the painful process of bidding have started and my timetable screwed up totally, and my work roster is also upset by another person. *argh*.. things havent been going well. =/

and i am stuck thinking whether i should go for honours, even if it's third class honours or graduate with a bachelor's degree. anyway, got very sick end of last year, havent really recover, and now sort of got sick too. =/ so good night to the world.

Crazy december

2006-12-15T11:23:00.000-08:00

doinkz. am back.

things had not been going smoothly for me. haix. been getting lots of headaches. think i need to chop my head off. then work is super tiring with so many cartons of stocks plus stock take and audit. yesterday had to be the worst day since i went back to work last sunday. guess what, i tio-ed customer's complaint! wtf. just because of a free gift that i missed out giving. haix. on top of them, it affected nyo and haney too. and things havent been well at the shop, and also having some personal problems. december is really the crazy month. with crazy sales and customers.

feel so tired. and the whole office will know about it today. really wtf. spoils my reputation. and the most happy thing these days will probably be the settlers' cafe trip last monday. got to meet tracy fullerton, some famous game designer and even played games with her. =)

alright. off day today too. just felt very suay because i need to go back to the shop this morning, which was just now, because the person who was supposed to hold the key ran away. and i had to go back to open the shop. haix. tmd. i think this has been a very bad year for me. and now i think the four leaves clover that my mum bought doesnt work, i seemed to be more suay than ever. or maybe it's just me. =/

Quick update

2006-12-09T23:46:00.000-08:00

doinkz. am finally back again. =) just a very quick update.

exams are finally over. last paper sux like any other paper. but i am happy! because the semester is coming to an end. looking forward to a new semester though i have to appeal for one of my module. then been going out these days. went kbox the other day with ariel. then celebrated weisee's birthday yesterday. also went out with targa to the chuangyi bazaar and plaza singapura. and saw many peeps today too! faizal, caeson, adrian and triffeny. and i bought many comics. haha~! then, previously also watched happy feet and a battle of wits.

i am a happy girl! but need to go back to work tomorrow. =( need the cash. haix.

Survey

2006-12-01T00:31:00.000-08:00

doinkz. alright, 3rd post if it havent exceed midnight. and times like this, i am just not feeling good.. so, time for a little survey to make myself feel better (hopefully)..

List 10 Of Your Friends (Any Gender) Below
1. targa
2. ariel
3. doris
4. ries
5. weisee
6. weilin (Tooty)
7. yap
8. kris
9. egg yoke
10. cedric

Now look at what i bitched about you. haha.

How long have you known 1? Last year, somewhere mid August

Have you been to 8's house? Nope

Do you like 6? haha, of course i like tooty. =) she is so toot sometimes (no offense, toot = cute ok?)

Are 4 and 10 friends? No, actually they dont even know each other. =/

Have you been to 3's house? Yup. I remembered when but forgotten the occasion though.

Would you ever live with 5? Of course! she is my best friend. =) if only she wants me to live with her.

When was the last time you talked to 4? Wah, what an apt question. casual talk would be last week on msn. if really talking in person, would be in february? =/ that's how long we havent seen each other.

Would 1 and 7 make a good couple? If they are gay, yes. but no! 1 is attached to me. =)

How about 6 and 10? Laughable combination, but can be considered.

Have you ever dreamt about 2? Nope and if i do, maybe i will have nightmares. haha~..

Have you ever slept with 9? I dont sleep with real egg yoke and my egg yoke friend. =)

Is 7 attractive? I'm sure he has his charms, but i find him really a super duper nice person.

Do you love 4? Erm, of course. =) my junior/les/best friend/ex-school mate/ex-band mate/nearby neighbour/whatever i can think of =)

Would you ever cuddle with 1? Erm, cuddle together?

Would you ever kiss 3? Nope, i dont kiss girls. just feel wrong. =/

What do you like best about 6? her tooty-ness. =)

Have you ever had a crush on 1, 3, 5, 7, or 9? haa. all? no lar.. just 1.

Do you ever wish you never met 3? nope, i was wondering that we could actually meet earlier if she never switched class in sec3.

How did you meet 9? Classmate of 104, bpghs. =)

Has 2 seen you naked? Nope.

Have you seen 2 naked? For what. haha.

Who is taller? 5 or 10? 10. i am very sure.

Have you met 4's family? Erm, sort of. seen her family members once. her sisters more than once.

Would you ever go out with 6? We go out all the time in the past. now we are both busy.

Do you think 7 is funny? I think i am funnier. Hahahaha.

What about 1? I still think i am funnier.

Where was the last place you went with 9? I think the cafe near medical faculty in nus. =/ last time i lunch-ed with him.

When was the last time you hung out with 2? good question. i forgot when too. =/ think she came to find me last month where i was working.

Where do you want to take 3? Take her nowhere. =/ haha.

When do you want to see 4? Hahaha anytime. but preferably after exams?

Would 5 and 6 make a good couple? Hahahah.. confirm wrong combination.

Have 7 and 8 ever kissed? Haha not that I know of lor.

Would 1 or 10 ever live together? dont think so.

Would you let 4 have your baby? though we are very good friends, let her be the 'gan ma'? =)

Have you ever told 1 a deep dark secret? Eh, which one is a deep dark secret? Dont seem to have one?

Has 1 ever told you a secret? yep. =)

Would you runaway with 6? huh, for what?

Who was the last person 9 kissed? ask him?

Who was the last person 9 hugged? refer to the previous answer.

What word or phrase does 5 say alot? Eh, her 'tai ci' always change leh.

Does 8 make you laugh? i think i make her laugh more. =)

Does 2 ever annoy you? depends on situations. maybe i am more annoying to her.

When did you last call 4? Cannot remember.. but we dont talk on the phone? The last time we talked on the phone, i think she called me. =/

Do you ever talk to 3 online? Yeah, plenty of times especially last week when we are chionging our stupid interactive storytelling project.

What about 10? not really. =/ but last week, i asked him to help me read through my essay.

Does 3 smell bad? nope. she smell of .. i dont know. she says i smell like onions. 0_0

Does 9 smell nice? no smell?

Are 1 and 8 friends? Nope.

Sad

2006-11-30T23:42:00.000-08:00

doinkz. second post for the day. =/

supposed to be a happy day, relaxing day. but the exams just spoilt part of the day (which i made it up by playing maple just now), and i just spoilt the other half of the day myself (by playing maple too). i wonder if i am an unreasonable player, irritating player, or what.. twice in a row, i made targa sort of angry. plus the server keep disconnecting him. he must have been very frustrated, while i just add on to his frustration.

i only wanted to kill some monsters to relieve my stress. haix. the day has to end this way. my fault.

SSB2216 and MNO1001

2006-11-30T22:05:00.000-08:00

doinkz. am back.. =/

just been through 2 exams for the past 3 days. and it was horrifying. only had 3 and 1.5 days to mug for ssb2216 and mno1001 respectively. and that was really scary because i cannot finish studying in the first place. and in the second place, i dont know what i am studying. guess i smoke too much during the lectures and tutorials. (i carry a bottle of smoke with me whenever i go for lectures and tutorials. haha, that's so not funny.) and i just wanna to curse and swear at interactive storytelling and game design 2 because they happily eat into my reading week. i even spent more time on them than revising for these two papers add together. *Argh*.. and i better get some decent grade for my work, if not i am going to continue to curse and swear because i know i am not going to do well for these two papers.

firstly, i got nothing to write, but i wrote quite a few pages for ssb2216, and filled in most of the blanks for mno1001. then, i struggled to write, which is quite evident from the content. and thirdly, since i have nothing to write, struggled to write and did wrote something, my crap doesnt make sense, at least to me. what i am praying hard for is, the other 400 plus students and 900 plus students in ssb2216 and mno1001 respectively also got nothing to write, struggled to write, and they dont make sense of what they are writing. i know it is impossible but trying to make myself feel better. according to mno1001, i think it is something called self-fulfilling prophecy. or self-limiting behaviour or something like that. haix. stress stress stress..

one more paper to go. yeah. one semester with so few exams. but out of a sudden, i wished that i had s/u ssb2216 and mno1001. *Argh*..

argh..

2006-11-23T22:25:00.000-08:00

doinkz..

*argh*.. i am going crazy. over the stupid research paper and the stupid-er interactive story i am supposed to hand up tomorrow. havent really got both done, or quite done. and i guess i am in deep shit.

the worst part is, i kept changing my topic of the research paper to suit my content, should it be the other way round? and i am about to puke if i look at my research paper one more time because the more i look at it, the more it sounds out of point. and yet, an hour later when i read it again, it may actually sounds good to me. i have no idea what i am writing. and to make it better or worst, it is the last thing i can use to boost up my grade for nm4209. the grade sux, at least for the project, it does. and project already accounted for half the grade. and i feel so dead right now.

and about interactive story, i have no idea how to do my interface yet. *argh*..

feeling very stressed. have even yet to prepare for the big exams.

do not disturb me!

Stressful update

2006-11-20T23:54:00.000-08:00

doinkz. i am back!

alright, it had been a long time since i was last here. =X was really that busy until i didnt even have time to sleep, less update the blog. =/ so it is finally approaching the end of the semester, (already end of school term by the way) and guess what, i still have assignments due this friday. assignments dont seem to let me off this semester, keep piling up and whatnots, and never-ending. *Argh*.. and this week is reading week, what am i doing here with final projects rather than studying for my papers? -pukes blood-

so the term ended very unsuccessfully, even till the last day, i am facing shit. first, deadlines came one after another. and with very un-cooperative lecturers only giving the topic for final project during the last two weeks of the semester. and also a 15% assignment one week before the school term ends, where we are assigned to read 4 articles and participate in class discussion in the midst of those project work. i can tell you that it is super irritating. especially for that stupid 15% assignment, basically, even if you come for lecture and just keep quiet, you will fail the assignment because participation accounts for half of the 15% and unless you are capable of getting full marks for the write-up session. and finally, unless the last day, Cowboy X had to cock up too. *Argh*.. by the way, Cowboy X is my game assignment/creation for one of my module. really feel damned shitty and stressed for this semester.

to make it worse, two final projects are due this friday. which one of them doesnt really make sense most of the time, and the other, i havent even brainstorm what i am going to write. and to top it off, exams are just next week, and i havent read a single reading or even finished organising my notes.

and the other part of me, other than schoolwork, isnt really that fantastic either.

in short, i am feeling very stressed. please do not come and disturb until the end of my exams.

Short and quick update

2006-10-12T15:38:00.000-07:00

doinkz. am back! and it's october already!!!

time seemed to pass so fast. last entry, i was still somewhere in the middle of the mid-term break. and now it's almost 2 weeks after mid-term break. for these 2 weeks, life really sux. things seemed to go terribly wrong anywhere, anytime.

first, it was the tedious and stressful school life as usual. and i really hate my project groups for this semester. -pui- but i finally finished some projects. like the flash photo album (ran into quite alot of technical problems actually and once again, i must reiterate the fact that i hate flash), then cq video almost done (wonder how the editing is going, still have the companion guide to do), design document submitted (phew, that was really tedious, and i dont know how is the cowboy x now because my lead programmer seems to have evaporated), my most-hated presentation done (in fact, it was just now, utterly no comments). and i am still left with my research papers! -!!!!- and all the bits and pieces left of other projects, and as well as the readings for the entire semester. i havent touch them at all, wonder how am i going into the exam hall like this.

work wise, still sucks. lack of manpower, though they tried to conduct some mini gathering to discuss about staff retention. had a good breakfast though. haha~.. though the har-gao got no har (prawn dumplings with no prawn -.-) anyway, there was a big fight on grace's last day. and subsequently, there were unhappiness in the shop. *ARgh*.. thou shalt not care. just give me my pay! and increase my pay please! hehe. then, john came to find me the other day while i was at work. tooty too. and had a good chat with them.

then, havent been spending much time with targa due to both of us busy with our own stuffs. but just met up yesterday for dinner, and should be meeting again for movies. been a long time since we last went to the movies. and he said that my blog is boring. o.O which i agree to certain extent, because it's all about my mundane stuffs that i do every now and then. sometimes, i wish i had more time for everything.

then, need to get out of house soon, because i got work. haix. =/
till then.

Filming done!

2006-09-27T23:23:00.000-07:00

doinkz. seems that i must be very free recently to update. of course, mid term break mah. more like making my bones break.

anyway, -applause to my team and i- we have finished filming (after 3 days of tortorous filming). i am supposed to act as an ah-lian, because the theme and setting is that of a secret society. dont really have much parts to film (am glad in a way, but it feels boring). anyway, our extras are very professional (one of them is my father) and -applause for them too-. for our filming, went to nick's house and it's damned big. of course, got a free treat at cartel and even a free student card. haha, sometimes it pays to be the only girl in the group. anyway, hopefully the video turns out good because the filming process is very tiring, not to mention that i have to wear the same set of clothes for those 3 days of filming. -pukes-

then, was doing my assignment 2 for interactive storytelling. thought that it should be pretty easy to do. and guess what, i had a hard time doing the assignment, thinking of the endings etc. basically, i have just some endings and middle parts ready. am trying to make them into plots. 8 different plots in fact. it sounds easy, but when it comes to hands-on, really scary. i am getting lost in my own storytelling. =/

then, digital photo album is not ready yet! -panic- should be already finished by now, but apparently izwah met with some technical problems i believe. then i still have my game design document. wiki is somewhat done, with chris' help, and my damned notebook is with him because i left it in the lab the other day and asked him to retrieve for me. then, my research papers are un-touched, and for my human resource management presentation, i am quite lost. oh no, i need those participation and does not want to be a free rider for the group but the group is so not progressive. help!

targa and i seemed to run into some communication problems too.

and lastly, i hate papasmurf. i miss john, caeson and jimmy. and one last thing, f*cking iskandar left some debts in bukit panjang plaza for me to clear. i am going to chop his hands off if i see him. i am a victim!! i feel so 'framed' when tomo called me yesterday. i cant believe that there are such bastards around.

and new day tomorrow. going to school for research and blah. then off to work at 4pm. haix. my life sux in some ways.