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Friday, June 17, 2005
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doinkz. i am finally back!!! after about a month.. =/

and so, for the past month, i had been working like mad in hang ten imm. =/ basically no life, i would say. thought that it was initially a wise choice to work in imm with kpo friend but now i felt that it was so damned wrong. to me, i have finally sort of seen through his true colours and all this while, i had been tolerating him at work. cannot felt anymore relieved than now when i ended my last day the day before yesterday. and all i would say was, all sort of nonsense happened during the past month and sometimes, i just felt that it was too much for me to take, but i am glad that i survived all of them somehow in a way or another.

first, work. working was not so much of a problem for me, but as i mentioned above, i was practically tolerating kpo friend at work everyday. initially in the beginning, it was still okie, still very much at peace with him. but after a week or so, he started aiming me, with or without reason. most of the times, it was over trival things, or even irrelevant things. only once or twice, it was really my mistake. somehow, i felt that i became stupid-er when i changed my outlet to imm. felt so restricted, so 'forced', so fake. and of course, i was super duper woper ultimate fed up with him all this while. really had quite enough. but in the midst of these nonsense, i was really glad that i got to know many new friends. was sent to relieve jurong point, causeway point and clementi on several occasions and not mentioning that there were many trainees training in imm. as a result, i got to know uncle ben, noena, francine, wai jyy, ting ler, colin, eugene, mike, richard, eileen, faidzal and of course knowing my own colleagues better - wai kien, grace, pei le, ariel and huiyan [left already]. and of course, when shit happens, shit really happened. was already damned pek chek with all the nonsense, and samuel offered me some terrible contract, asking me to ask. anyway, it was all settled already. so currently, i am on leave till next week, then i will revert back to part time, still in imm though because i still have great colleagues though a terrible boss, and no obligations for me to work during weekdays [read: only need to work weekends].

next, outside work, kpo friend is *Argh* too.. dont really want to bothered myself with him actually. sometimes, i really feel that i need to shut down my hotline. am quite pissed sometimes over the calls and sms-es. felt pity for him sometimes but i felt pity for my lack of sleep too. haix. =/ imagine listening to the same thing over and over again. i just get the *Argh*.. feeling. think my patience is running out, perhaps because he is always aiming me during work instead when he is unable to aim wai kien. somehow, working in imm and with him for the past month changed me. i felt so un-me and i hate this. the so-hot-tempered me, the so-critical me, the so-keep-wanting-to-win me, which is so unlike me. *Argh*..

minus kpo friend, work is still shitty at times because i always get crap customers. either that, or i am always forced to serve crap customers or i am always given targets to fulfil [which i am so sick of doing]. suffered quite alot of injustice at work and still have to maintain my cool, smile and everything, and even to the extent of cheering the others up. and this is because when my boss is unable to aim me, he will start aiming the others. perhaps i am just alot stronger than the rest who wont cry and will retaliate when provoked. and, i am so freaking tired out. for my one month in imm, i did 3 shop visits and 3 stock takes. who and what can be worse?

work aside, got this terrible problem going on and i dont know how to go about settling that. first, i really thought it was a joke when i first known about it but apparently it wasnt. *Argh*.. and now, a great deal of people know about it. am having some pressure regarding this matter. haix.. =/ in the first place, i dont even know how it started. felt that the whole thing is so wrong somehow, i mean, after all that had happened. erm.. vexed. =/ think i really need to think through carefully before saying/doing anything. haix. =/

then, results were already out some time ago. variations of B for all my subjects except econs, which gave me a big fat C. and this is something which i expected, but not happy about. relieved that i got a C because i really know nuts about it when i did the exams, but just super unhappy because it pulled down my cap score, and destroyed my perfect B record. haix. =/ anyway, passed that stupid English thingie too, which means that the course is forever out of my life. yeah! =) am switching major to something else instead of econs because i can cope with both macroeconomics and microeconomics but i just cannot do econometrics. =/ perhaps trying out a shared major, will think about it again before school reopens.

other than that, almost the whole world saw me working in imm. then, did try to meet up with peeps that i havent met up for ages. and, really miss all my friends. =/ on leave at the moment. my contract is still not ready so i cant sign it. haix. then, am doing a special term - introduction to computing, which will start on monday. currently, still in a bad mood. haix. =/ stressed up somehow. i really need a break. just need to get away and really disappear for a while if not think i might end up like sour plum. but anyway, sour plum is alot better now, at least already emotionally stable. just felt that too many things happened during the past damned month. i am really tired. leave me alone for a while.

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