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Wednesday, March 2, 2005
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doinkz. i am finally back. beware of the long entry ahead.

after so long of not blogging, am starting to miss my blog. firstly, shall update about last week. last week's monday to thursday was my supposed mid-term break. [dont ask me why mid term holidays only last for 4 days and why friday is not included.] anyway, i didnt need to go to school on friday, so my break started from last last friday till the just-over monday and so it's like 10 days instead of 4 days. *hEe*.. =) but as usual, i got to work on friday, saturday and sunday, so it took away 6 days of my break and i am back to having 4 days break. during my 4 days, i slacked around pretty much. or shall i say very much. kept procrastinating and didnt got much of my assignments done. =/ got abit of english done. and it was already tuesday night when i finally realized that i havent got time to finish my philosophy term paper. so i used my wednesday to think through it and type it out in thursday and normally a philosophy term paper would need more time than that. =/

anyway, pretty much slacked through the 4 days of mid-term. then on last thursday, had a much busy day. woke up at 10plus, saw jac's sms and decided to head to pjc to return the donation card. =/ met up with her at 1pm, walked around the school in search for mdm shafa but in the end, decided to turn the card to the head office. after that, i left for toa payoh. promised to lunch with ah-ger. but scarly, there was this on-going meeting and i had to wait for ah ger until 3 plus, nearly 4pm to have lunch. ate at the kopitiam near tpy1. and after we finished eating and walking back to the shop, guess what? i received a call from kpo friend, asking me if i am in tpy. doinkz~.. and guess what, he was at tpy too with kiat ming. and to my horror, he told me that he was at the coffeeshop that i just had lunch. horror because ah ger and i were talking about nonsense stuffs. anyway, discovered how near his seats was to the place where ah ger and i initially sat. =/ so he, cris and kiat ming had lunch. ah ger and i just sat there. but we talked alot and by 'we', i meat cris, ah ger and me. i never seemed to shut my mouth. haa~.. the two guys are just there, listening to us.

after that, kpo friend and kiat ming left for city hall. i went to tpy2. kpo friend told me to join them, i agreed. and ah ger was spreading nonsense around tpy. -pengZ- anyway, met up with them again at peninsula plaza where i began to stone. after kiat ming filled up his form, that agent led the 3 of us into another room where he interviewed kiat ming and kpo friend and me were at the other side of the room. and no, we did not talk to each other. he fell asleep on the couch, and i watched tv. haix. after that, kiat ming said that he was hungry so we went to marina square's foodcourt. when he went to buy food, kpo friend and i didnt really talk. doinkz. what the hell is happening? anyway, when both of them were back from buying food and drinks, i was exclaiming that both of them are 'ji mo de nan ren' and that they should go find a partner. and from there, began a talk about relationships. but most of the time, it's me and kiat ming talking lor. doinkz. haix. =/ and i left after that, because i saw the need to get home for household chores.

then, the next three days, friday to sunday, i had work. a few pieces of great news. firstly, nick nack really changed his attitude towards me. i wonder what caused the change. maybe he finally realised that though i complained alot, ultimately i still do my best at the shop. next, got 2 newcomers - jason and darryn. anyway, jason is not too bad. heh~.. =) and darryn is abit atrocious sometimes. but i got along with them pretty well. and both of them are chatty like me. heh~.. and next, cris is pregnant! =) and she asked me if it's good if her daughter looks like me. and i almost fainted when i heard that. why would anyone want to look like me? so plain. haa~.. but there is also a piece of sad news. soon wai got transferred to punggol plaza! so sad.. =/ haix.

and after that, monday came. and surprisingly, i didnt feel as tired as i used to be on mondays. wonder if something is wrong with my body or maybe i have mastered the art of the art of stoning or the art of -jian qiang de nu ren-. anyway, my monday was quite screwed up. somehow in a way or another, i actually didnt have my english assignment with me. -how great- that broke my perfect record of handing in all english assignments. *Argh*.. and i was so pissed with myself. anyway, after that, i had lunch with kris at gecko and told her to give me feedback on the philosophy term paper that i came up with within two days. apparently, according to her, my example was good etc, just that i didnt express myself well enough in one of the paragraphs. and i had a sort of philosophy discussion with her over lunch and heh, it was fun because we were like debating with each other. and after that, had straight 6 hours lectures. -gives myself a pat on the shoulders- because i survived another siong monday!

then i really felt the effects of working plus siong monday and when i reached home, really quite seh. the worst thing was, i had a sociology mid-term test the next day. tried to read but i fell asleep and ah ger called me at 1am, chatted with her until 2 plus. *faints*.. and the next day [which was yesterday], went to school feeling crap because i havent finished any revision on any of the topics. *argh*.. was feeling freaked out. and to my horror, i didnt bring foolscap paper! lucky i saw marcus. heh and i took some from him. anyway, got a shock just by looking at the questions. =/ finally picked the one on research methods though i have no idea what to write. and crapped out a 1 and 3/4 page essay. hope i wont do that badly. *Argh*.. feeling screwed. and after that, i came home, tried to do my econometrics assignment but i really have no idea how to do it. finally went back to school again at 5 plus for this make-up econometrics tutorial. [because it doesnt make sense to have the tutorial after the mid term test] and my name got called up to present question 3. and the great thing is, i only knew how to do question 1 and 2. =/ so i just told my tutor that i dont want to present because i am not sure how to do it. and he looked abit stunned. and after me, the names he called didnt want to present question 3 and 4. haa~..

and today. *gives myself a pat on the shoulders* i survived again. had english and it was crap because i was feeling so damned hungry that i cant think. and actually, i was planning to skip science of music lecture but i was scared that i remembered the date of the mid-term test wrongly, so i decided to go instead in case the mid term test is today and not next week. and hehe, it's next week. so i sat there, flipped through abit of econometrics and stoned through the rest of the lecture. got back to arts faculty in time for the test. and haix, though econometrics mid term test is open-book, it is still so difficult! perhaps it's because i dont have a strong background, and i am referring to my notes most of the time. but it's really hard on me because i dont have calculus background, so in doing this module, i am like learning calculus and econometrics all together.

okie. conclusion of the day : should i still stick to economics as my major? seriously, i foresee myself in great difficulties in the future though i am now on track. but next, what can i major in if i dont major in economics? and if i am going to do a shared major, will i still able to do honours? i must make sure i try my best to go honours since i have come so far. haix. *headache thinking of this*..

and coincidences really happened. ries and i took the same 189 last night. i thought that that figure looked like her and it's really her! and when she got off the bus, i finally saw that it's her and called her. anyway, it's like abit dumb. and guess what, this morning, we took the same 189 again. haa~..

then, as for me. i am still the same. still couldnt figure out what i had been thinking the past month. maybe there is no reason? =/ or like sek lin says, i am too sensitive? but no, i think i am not sensitive. but perhaps it's time to take a break, to let go, to stop thinking about it all together. but why am i so bothered about it? am i really wrong in my judgements? -vexed- time will tell, i hope. i hope what others said of you arent true.

okie, enough ranting. only have 1 tutorial tomorrow and after that, lunch with weisee. =) good night everyone.

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