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Tuesday, March 15, 2005
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doinkz. finally a little less tired to blog. =) and it's going to be a long update again.

firstly, it had been a tiring week since i last updated. everyday had been a busy day. -wow- =/ let me start from last thursday. last thursday, had lessons till 11am. and after that, i took my own sweet time [read, really own sweet time] to toa payoh. doinkz. finally reached there after 12 plus. and guess what, the first person whom i saw there was 'qi li xiang'. and he asked me for 2 bucks and i didnt give it to him. it was damned scary! i didnt expect to see him and of course, i would have -siam- if i could. but anyway, i kept meeting scary people that day. the next scary person was kpo friend's ex staff. *Argh*.. he walked past tpy3 [at that time, i was outside tpy3 waiting to have lunch with sek lin] and he smiled at me. -omg- shivers always run down my spine whenever i see him. and that's even worse when he smile at me. so freaky. =/ anyway, had lunch with ah ger and sek lin. after that, i went home. took a nap and came out of the house again to meet up with farrah, tooty and yang.

met up with them at lot1 for dinner. both farrah and yang commented my hair is nice. heh.. =) anyway, crapped abit with them. then went off to clementi to meet that two vs guys [not sure of their names]. headed to nus [yeah, again] for the concert. saw many peeps there namely the bp folks. as for the concert, uncle rc, yueping [whose ang mo name is chloe], rushan, kaili are performing. anyway, didnt got very good seats. yang and i were sitting at some other corner away from the other peeps. doinkz~.. and we are right beside chloe's aka yueping's friends. =/ anyway, the concert was fairly good. i like tempered steel and princess momonoke, which i feel were the best pieces for that night. the rest were not as good. anyway, went off to clementi macdonalds for supper with the peeps. then went home to sleep.

as for friday, saturday and sunday, as usual, i had work. work was quite sucky because for these three days, it's always two people in the shop, meaning either me with sek lin or me with sour plum. and the bad thing was, sales were atrocious for those three days. =/ firstly, i must admit that i was really not in the mood to do any sales on friday, but only friday because on friday, i came to know of something that really made me very lostform. but i really chionged on saturday and sunday and still, sales were bad. doinkz~.. and these few days, had been busy preparing for shop visit. tried very hard to maintain the neatness in the shop. and guess what, i screamed at my customers on sunday. and all the customers in the shop turned to look at me. =/ quite pissed off with sour plum these days. because she is too slow in doing things. haix~.. and finally, for the first time in history, tpy3 is not the last to close for shop visit. a few peeps came to help, namely sally from j8, yuchan from cp1. and after that, i really intended to go off because it was already 2am in the morning and i had lessons at 10am. but on seeing the state that tpy2 was in, i stayed a little while more to help tpy2. created some joke down there. doinkz. actually sometimes i do find nick nack abit pitiful. =/ and i finally went off at 3am.

reached home at 3 plus. and got up at 9am to go to school. was so damned shagged. that was yesterday. and i fell asleep in all my lectures. doinkz~.. and that made me wonder why i went for them in the first place. might as well come home and sleep. =/ but if i do so, my mother will scream at me for helping out again. haix~.. anyway, i fell asleep while trying to do my tutorial. and when i woke up again, it was already 1.45 am this morning. *Faints*.. so in the end, i decided to go to sleep and wake up at 7 to do the tutorial.

and today, went for tutorial late. and the tutor obviously loves to call me up to present my answer. wth~.. =/ anyway, stoned through the tutorial and the sociology lecture after that. after that, i came home, and slept till 4 plus. doinkz~.. and now i am still tired. but a little less tired. time to do my readings and tutorials again.

this few days, i saw quite a number of peeps. minus 'qi li xiang', minus kpo friend's ex staff [anyway, i saw him again on friday and saturday. -omg- really freaky], rayson came on sunday. gave me quite a shock. i mean, i was folding clothes in that serious mood of mine, the shutter of my shop is half closed, he didnt came into the shop, but instead grabbed my leg from under the shutter. and i was like screaming because it really gave me a fright. that was in the middle of the night already. =/ and well, yap came too. i was so glad for his presence. he is always there when i need him. =) thanks. then, in school yesterday, i saw kangmin and egg yoke! didnt meet up with egg yoke for such a long time and he is still the same. hehe~..

guess what, nowadays i just want days to pass as quickly as possible, as though i really hate school that much. nowadays, i just have no motivation in doing anything, no matter it comes to work or school. nowadays, i just want to keep myself busy so that i wont have time to wonder. nowadays, i dont feel like talking at all though i have lots of things to say. nowadays, i only want to be alone even though i am very lonely. nowadays, i am back to the depression mood that i used to be in a long time ago, just that it seemed to get very serious now.

and kpo friend got chickenpox.

and jason can see that i havent been happy ever since i returned to hang ten in february.

and i really think i need a break.

wo hao nan guo.

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