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Wednesday, March 16, 2005
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doinkz. -back- =/

talked to kiat ming last night. felt abit better. as i always said, he is the least heartless among the three of them [jimmy, kpo friend and him]. well, apparently he is doing fine. glad to know that.

then this morning, i went to class as usual. but i made mrs chitra super angry. because i didnt do my work and i went to class. -wow- rare of me i must say. but i just dont feel like doing the essay. anyway, in the end, i dont have a soft and hard copy of my essay. so i did it in class, then went to print it in AS1, then went back to class for peer review. apparently, the essay still looks out of point because my effort is really not there. i just felt so sick of school work suddenly. haix. i mean, i always do my work on time, hand them in, i do feel a sense of achievement for being so disciplined. but recently, i just dont have the motivation. think i need to change my attitude. it had been a tough semester apparently, with one more module than the others. and it's frustrating because every week i have to cough out 4 hours for this module. seriously, my patience for this english module is running out. *Argh*.. just what is wrong with me?

then went for science of music lecture and as usual, i was half listening and half stoning. then went back to arts faculty for econometrics lecture. today's lecture got tougher as usual, and i managed to borrow dorcas's tutorial homework because i simply have no idea how to do the whole tutorial homework. -slap myself- i mean, i am really paying attention and i still have no idea how to do it. maybe i am really stupid, and not cut out for economics. and haix, i think most probably i will get called up for tomorrow's tutorial. so doinkz~.. now i really understand why people see me as 'ki siao' when i decide to take economics as my major. having thoughts to change my major to something else.

and guess what, i collected the philosophy term paper which took me a day to think and a day to type it today. got a 17 and i wondered if it is good or bad. well, my tutor wrote comments that i could have gotten higher if i had considered more views about the topic. doinkz~.. erm, i am happy for a 17 already since i put in minimum effort. hope i will get a better grade for the upcoming term paper, due in like one week before the exams. -omg- *Faints*.. seems like my time is running out. *Argh*.. exams in a month's time. -wow-

and erm, i realised time passes very quickly. it's already wednesday. tomorrow will be thursday then friday will come and i will start work and after the weekend, monday would be here again. [pardon my blabbering] and suddenly, i realised i only have six working days left in hang ten. -wow- without realising, 2 months really passed very quickly. erm, think most probably i wont return to hang ten after my exams. most probably means = 60%. well, though i dont really like working in this company, it really brought me fond memories and of course, bad memories too. really getting sick of working there, though i love the people there and the place. but can i really bear to leave everything behind like jimmy? i dont blame jimmy, because i know at the very least, he is living a better life than he was in hang ten.

erm, and i have come to a decision. i will end my misery tomorrow. i dont know if i will back out at the last minute, but i will try not to. hope that i will get my answers, then move on with my bloody life. i just hope that i wont be too upset.




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